365/365: This Isn't Perfect. Life, relationships, the weather, our plans, our successes, our failures, who we love, who we are, and everything else in between. That's what #thisisntperfect365 was all about. It was about documenting a year that was full of ups and down, that wasn't perfect, but that was wonderful regardless. The point is, everything is beautiful and nothing will ever be perfect. I don't ever want perfection. There is no perfect to gain or strive for. •A year ago I was completely lost (like I had been before), I was heartbroken over a boy who I wanted to save (because then I didn't have to worry about myself), I was convinced my mental health and ED would control the rest of my life, and all at the same time I wanted more. So I started this project, because I knew if I did nothing else each day, I had to take one picture, post it, and be honest about my day. There were over a dozen times I wanted to quit. Over a dozen times I felt stupid about the whole project. BUT there were hundreds of times it saved my life and turned my day around. Just when I thought "I did nothing today, I'm a waste", I would remember I did this one small, but pretty big thing, I stuck to something and saw it through.• Today I am in a new city and state, I am starting a new job in a couple of days, most days my mental health is in good standing, my ED is more of a sweatshirt and not so much a layer of skin, and my self worth is in a good place. I am surrounded by people I love, people who love me, people who see me (when I'm up and when I'm down), and more than ever I have realized that I have myself. I am enough. Even when I don't feel strong, I am strong.
Thank you for spending a year with me; or maybe you spent a month, a week, or even just a day. Either way, thank you. This project wasn't just for me, it was for you too. Yes, you!
I've been as naked and honest as I can be and I will continue that, no matter where this life and especially this instagram takes me. ✌🏼