I wasn’t gonna post about this subject. Partly due to shame. But I think it may help someone if I share my experience of my post show blues and experience of bulimia.
Typically post show you go on a 2-3 day binge. It tends to be the trend. In my case I did just that then switched to a strict reverse diet.
Visually and physically I felt great. Getting sharper, pushing more weight etc
But mentally I wasn’t ready. I started to have negative thoughts creeping into my head.
This lead to Tuesday 17!!!
Had my final meal of oats as per usual but was left thinking, i could have had a little more. I don’t feel satisfied.
This later lead to me driving to asda to Buy and eat 4 pineapple cakes, 1kg sponge cake, ice cream, pack of dime bar cookies. tin of custard, half a tub of peanut butter and then I continued to raid the cupboards in my home until I couldn’t move.
But that’s not the reason for this story....what followed after was much worse. I started to formulate a plan on how I was going to adjust my diet over the next few days, increase cardio etc to account for the excess...
then the thought crossed my mind why don’t I just make myself sick. In the end I spewed until I was happy with what I seen on the scales 😥 this was my first and last experience of bulimia. It’s a very shameful and lonely experience but it doesn’t have to be. I have found through sharing my experience with @kaj_fitness has helped massively. It’s a serious problem that if kept behind closed doors could cause you serious long term damage. I am a strong willed person but I crumbled fairly easily. I can see how people could get stuck in this cycle. Seek help immediately!!!