Get ready for a long post.
First things first, yes I got a hair cut. I'm not happy though. But this is the face of determination and motivation. This IS a terrible picture for so many reasons. This was taken yesterday morning after I did my workout. I noticed that when I put on a pair of jeans the previous day, they were a little tight even though they are probably the smallest pair I own, however discouraging none the less. No workout today, and though it being later in the day I stepped on the scale and it read 160. Although I'm 5'6" and supposedly this is a healthy weight to be....this is the heaviest I've ever been in my life. I have been unemployed for 7 weeks now and have felt isolated, trapped and stuck in my house and in my head. Its hard to be your own cheerleader constantly when you don't believe in yourself. I haven't been as productive with my time or as active as I should be and this is key. I've always always always been too hard on myself and right now I can't help but feeling like I'm wasting time.
Yesterday (this may sound crazy) I smudged myself and my whole house to rid of any kind of negative energy and welcomed anything in of light, love and positivity. From when I started to when I finished the energy in the house honestly did feel different and more positive. I do feel I am on the right track now. My mind feels mostly clear and I do feel more positive. I was planning on handing out resumes today but my printer wouldn't work 😡 With today being black Friday it would have probably been too crazy anyway SO, *pardon my French* BUT MONDAY YOU GUNNA BE MY BITCH!!! Monday will NOT be a 'Monday'. Monday will be mon-day, MY-day and nothing will get in my way!!!! #positivity #light #love #fitness #mindfulness #manifestation #motivation #determination #nothappy #iwillgetthere #mondayismybitch #nottodaysatan #weightloss