Let's Be Real
I'm being brave & finally posting some photos of me today... These were taken just after I managed to stop sobbing for ages this afternoon.
Today I feel defeated. Like I don't really know how to do all of this. I'm trying to figure out my diet, various medications & battle this ongoing anxiety. I feel confused with all the info & to be honest, really unwell. My brain feels overloaded & I can't figure out if I'm doing anything right.
I've got the added pressure that stress causes blood sugar issues so anytime I feel stressed, I feel even more guilty for something that could be harming our baby.
It's not a great place to be.
Yesterday I posted some beautiful photos we had taken which we will love forever as they capture moments when all the stresses fell away for a minute & my husband & I were able to enjoy the pregnancy and what the future holds. It's so important for us to have them.
But the thing to remember is that those images aren't my everyday. They are in spite of how I've been feeling.
There's this myth that pregnancy is all glowing and happiness but in reality, for a lot of us, it's really hard work.
We need to be brave & tell this side of the story too because there's an expectation that it will be amazing all the time & it can leave women feeling like they're doing something wrong or somehow inadequate.
It's ok not to be ok. 💖