@jesusacostx inspired me to write this long post, thank you for making the world a better place, I love you❤️ Pt:1
Whenever I post something you just see "katiabada" the girl who's always traveling the world, occasionally modeling, and sharing happy moments. Well, the people who truly know me , know I've come a long way.
I'm so tired of seeing how people continue to commit suicide and people posting things about it...and yet being the first ones to judge one another!!! Its time to make a change and do something about this messed up world.
When I was 16 I was diagnosed with clinical depression. And ever since then, I have never been able to fully recover. It's been a very very difficult path, I have lost SEVERAL meaningful relationships, countless courses, career opportunities due to this crippling disease. Mental health is NOT a game. I honestly never took away my life because it would be hypocrite of my part, as I know I would consequently cause the same pain to my loved ones. My close friends now exactly what I'm talking about. Depression is very very hard to comprehend, and therefore people don't really get it. I don't really get it. People tell me go do exercise go do the stuff you like.. but you know what? I don't have the energy nor the will to do it.. I prefered to spend my days doing absolutely NOTHING. Literally just staring at a wall. People tell me go make plans with friends. I do that, but guess what? I never come through. I always get this desire to stay in my bed and just literally start overthinking everyfuckingthing. People say why don't you go to school? Why don't you do your work? It's because every time I tried I would suffer from severe anxiety attacks. My lowest point came when I called a suicide hotline and I realized what I was doing. My point with this is that MENTAL HEALTH IS NOT A GAME.YOU MUST TAKE IT SERIOUSLY. Pt.2 ⬇️