What a weekend. It kicked off in the best possible fashion, getting to hang with one of the homies @deshoots just straight up playing around.
We skated, we threw down some handstands, thanks to some coaching from @samanthahodhod 🙌 gymnast extraordinaire, we messed around with some animal flow, and we just talked.
Not that surface level chit chat we often find ourselves having with new acquaintances, but the real nitty gritty shit. The stuff thats eating us up, we talked about the losses we've both experienced in the last few years and the real feelings that acompany it: depression, anxiety, lonliness, emptiness, burnout and how we've found ways to work though these. And one of the big ones for both of us is all of you. It's all about connection, connection with the community you have around you.
So why is it that it's so hard to open up about these feelings? We so often just hide away, telling everyone we're okay and hiding our feelings behind a wall of "ya I'm fine thanks for asking." Whilst the conversation in our own mind knows otherwise. So I challenge you, next time someone asks how you're doing be real, give a straight answer, if the person listening can't handle that, it's on them and that's a chat for another day, but I bet you 9 times out of 10 that person will hold space for you because they've probably gone through some shit too.
Now it wasn't all seriousness the element of play made it reminiscent of days shooting the shit back on the schoolyard with the homies.
It might of been because J lent me a skateboard to roll around on, and the last time I'd stood on one was back in highschool but I think it was more that with the challenge of relearning and old skill you have to be vulnerable, be in the moment and not worry about looking like a complete goof.
For me the realization that with most things the only person who really cares what you look like is you, and in letting go of that you can tackle anything, or at least try too.
At least that's what I told myself when I decided to do a handstand inNoreagas hideout in Panama a few weeks back 🙌 props to @kalahiss for getting amongst to.