Almost a year ago....depression hit so hard.
I felt no matter what I did I had no control over my life and I was upset about literally everything.
My life was turned upside down.
I was scared. I was scared for my actions, for the way I treated people and I was scared I didn't know how to control this beast called depression.
Today... August 15th... just short of that year mark I feel....better.
I've gone through many medicines and decided medicine is not for me. I've been though ups and downs and honestly...im still down but it's getting better.
This week I've thought, why the hell have I let my body go, the one thing I can control. I've ate so much junk, havnt worked out and have made countless promises to myself didn't keep.
This morning , I woke up and grabbed my giinormois fountain pop and hopped on the scale. (Yes I just said I had a fountain pop for breakfast and with a side of goldfish crackers)
To be honest that pop is giving me a stomach ache... yet I'm still drinking it AND my scale isn't working!
I'm scared shitless to see that number. I have clothes that don't fit and my scrubs are pretty tight.
Im making a promise Im keeping to myself and I have hubs and a few friends helping me with it.
Monday I start healthy.
To fight this demon you can't control, I need to control what I can to fight it.
It's time to change for the better. I'm done hoping and dreaming it's time to start doing.
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