This is the most recent MRI of my spinal cord (taken just over a month ago). .
Two days ago I had an appointment with NZ’s top neurosurgeon, who took me through everything from the beginning. He explained how I managed to practically explode my C4 vertebrae, and the impact it had, completely crushing my spinal cord. He talked about my spinal fusion surgery and said the surgeon did a great job. He explained the process that occurs that causes inflammation, deterioration and scarring, which lead to examining the current state of my cord after more than 3 years.
And as you can see, I f***ed that thing up pretty bad!
The gray line running down from my brainstem is my spinal cord. The white space on either side is the cerebral fluid that the brain and cord effectively “float” in.
That white clump in the middle is where I crushed my spinal cord and is now a tangled mess of inflammation and scar tissue, intertwined with what remains of my cord.
Just seeing my MRI hit me super hard! I didn’t realise I had crushed it so badly to the point that it now looks like it was practically severed... But it’s still in there amongst the scarring... scarring that is stopping the nerves from reconnecting and is now almost blocking my cerebral fluid from flowing in between my spinal cord and my brain. If this becomes completely blocked, it can be life-threatening. So we will be keeping an eye on this.
It was pretty heavy hearing all of this, but I’m glad I finally got to sit down with the right expert who took the time to explain everything to me. He also said that I am extremely lucky to be alive. It’s his job to deliver the facts, not to build hope around research or treatments that are not yet proven... and I went in knowing that, yet I still left feeling broken and discouraged. The only real positive that I took from the consultation, was that I was lucky to survive and that I’m doing really well considering extent of my injury.
That consultation, and this post, are about the hard facts… Check back in tomorrow for part 2 of this story.
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