“How would you encourage others who are hesitant to enter eating disorder treatment?” Entering treatment was an incredibly hard decision to make. It wasn’t hard for me to admit I had a problem- that was clear to me. What I didn’t really understand is how much of a problem it really was. When I saw one of my doctors after I had gone to treatment she told me “You know, you were really acting like you had your shit together. We all really knew you didn’t.” She was proud that I had made the decision to go to treatment on my own. Although I did go willingly, it was two close friends that really helped me realize that it was time (@hfrike and @kelseyamabale I absolutely cannot thank you enough). I was told that in order to be a better runner, friend, teacher and above all, a better wife- a change needed to happen and it absolutely could not wait. So, after countless tears and a hard conversation with my husband and mother we agreed that it was time. The next day I checked myself into a residential center for those struggling with eating disorders. It was one of the hardest things I had ever done. It was painful, emotionally draining, degrading at times and exhausting. After 30 days I was discharged into partial hospitalization which is when you go to treatment from 8 am to 2:30. I was still struggling, but I was changing little by little.
I have been out of treatment for almost a month. I have fallen down frequently- but I have gotten back up. I am a better wife to my husband. I am finally living my dream and I’m teaching beautiful, multilingual second graders. I am training again (slowly, with the help of a coach and my dietician) with the goal of running Boston healthy (right now that’s my only goal- that and finishing with a smile). Going to treatment has helped me rediscover the joy in life. I am truly blessed. Do it for yourself. You are worthy. #wedoact2breakstigma #neda #edwarrior