I've been thinking of wether to do this or not, but yesterday I nearly successfully took my own life, I just wanted to share this with yall, to let you know that your not alone if you've been through or are going through the same thing, I've been sexually and physically abused, nearly raped, homeless, mistreated and misunderstood. Suffer from anxiety/panic attacks, been in an abusive relationship, been hand cuffed because of a panic attack that got out of control and led to me jumping out of a window and hanging from it. Police caught my leg in time and pulled me back in, it's sad to know some people get to such a point where nothing seems like it will ever change but as I'm sitting here writing this, it is not worth doing something permanent over something painfully temporary.
Someone I thought would be there when I need them, kicked me to the ground even more. I realised anyone can say anything but only ourselves can make the change, it takes so much mental strength, Its going to be a long road for me and hopefully I will get through this, I would like others to know you can do it, if you suffer from anxiety/depression/or feel like commuting suicide you CAN change your life, you just got to stay strong and fight through the pain and heart ache.
I just feel like letting everyone who has been there for me I'm sorry for putting you through pain, and thankyou for all being there when I have needed.
Alot of things cut me up inside I suffer from separation anxiety. When I was younger my brother never lived with me for 6 years he never knew I was his sister but every time he visited it broke me seeing him leave 💔
No matter how bad things get inside your head and around you, you always have the power and you are strong enough to change it, just believe in yourself and love yourself. There are people around you who care and love you, you may not see it in the worst moments but there is always someone, you just need to let them help and stop pushing them away.
I no the date for beatbynakita has gone but I still hashtagged this post just so that people who do come across it and read it can maybe hopefully find some hope.