This is my body, and it's weird because I attach a lot of happiness to how I feel about it. Some days I feel like it looks awesome, other days I don't, and it changes very frequently.
When I started lifting, I was motivated by my insecurities. I was always very skinny and had a hard time putting on weight.
I'm 25 now, I've been lifting for over ten years. I've put on some muscle, though not as much as I have always wanted to, despite all my numerous efforts. I try to tell myself that I lift because I love myself and because I love improving my body, but I still can't go more than a couple days without lifting where I don't start to feel horrible about my body. To me, this is a red flag that I have not let go of my insecurities and that I have just used lifting to mask them. Another red flag is that I am very concerned with how my body looks in pictures and videos, as if I am always worried about how others will judge my body.
I have expressed my feelings about all this a few times in the past, but most people just call me crazy and tell me to be grateful for what I have accomplished (some people have even gotten mad at me lol). To me, this is kind of like telling a depressed person to cheer up; it doesn't fix the underlying issue, not that it is anyone else's responsibility to fix my body image issues.
What I want to say now is that I fully recognize that this is a mental issue, but also that it is a deep-seated one that I think will require a lot of work to fix. So I'm asking all of you, what have you done, experienced, or learned that helped you love your body/yourself when you were struggling to? What keeps you positive about your body even when you feel bloated, weak, fat, ugly, etc?
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