"She"s a combination of sensitive and a savage" with a "soul of a gypsy , a heart of a hippie and a spirit of a mermaid".🧚♀️
My face carries a mask to hide my mental illness,and in my body lives in a brain that begs to die everyday." Too much rage and pain. "is in my brain, the memories i wish to forget, yet in my head the scream won't silence.So I kneel pray for quiet because Hush is all i need. Hush the misery.There's always a riot in my head.I might as well be left for good and dead.".as i have been for 20 years...all the attempts were fails, badly that now i'm being forced to live. So my Anger rises and my meds dont have control over it so i Need pain. #myknuckles
I speak out my truth because when you live in and out of psychwards,mnths at a time, where we are safe and connected deeply, Our brains are sick, traumatized, incapable, disabled, some addicts, homeless, anorexic, schizophrenic all one place.I am not ashamed of all the mental illness, i hid it for too long..So many judge people "us" you don't know ,nor take your time to know their story but you sure take your dear time to judge.
Read all my DM''S, they are 99% of people reaching out with mental illness saying to me"you are saying everything i am going through, everything, thank you"..When growing up in church Gods words taught me to love everyone. Except just flesh and bones because looks fade away, but the soul is forever. Therefore please do not judge who i am friends with, accquaitenced with, or anything at all. Im my own person and who i am with is not who I am.I cannot judge what anyone does, i don't control their actions nor have I been in their shoes to know why they do what they do. So therefore i welcome everyone in my life. I have stabbed in the back, too many times, but i still believe i should be kind to everyone. Exceptions to whom conninvingly chose to stab it. You know who you are. But ill never seek revenge because I know God heals my back and i just move on, hurt, but some people are cruel. #IamAboxer#iamsorrycoach#imperfectlyme #iwasntmadeTofallline#heavymetallyrics#mentalillness#C-PTSD#BipolarandBorderline#anxiety#manicdepression#flashbacksandtriggers