Our monthly rituals have now come to an unexpected close. The fact that you're no longer here with me, really fucking blows. I'm pissed off, distraught, I'm hurt and full of pain. But forever in my heart, your love will always remain. You taught me so much and constantly kept me inspired. And I was hoping it would last, at least until we BOTH retired.
We don't get a choice in death, it's a fate we all are doomed to share. But when it comes too soon, it's definitely quite the scare. I'm still in shock, still can't talk and in a state of disbelief. But I'm making it a point to remember all the good times before processing the grief. Cause I know that's ultimately what you'd want us to do. Instead of drowning our sorrows and regretting what we 'could have' done to "save" you.
Rest in peace, my best friend, my brother AND my cousin<3 you will be missed. And hopefully there'll come a day when I won't be so royally pissed about this. #irefusetobelieveit #gonetoosoon #neverforgotten #myblackcousin #hewastheshit