Hi, I'm 22, and this is my basic and cozy living room in my 3& 1/2 apartment, I moved here 6 months ago and wanted to share my appreciation for it.
When I was 15, affraid of coming out, thought of killing myself multiple times because my fears we're justified, I couldn't be myself. I never felt like I belonged anywhere. My family was poor and my mom was a traditional yet independent single Punjabi mother, she raised 4 kids on her own. I was the one who took care of my little sister and contributed in helping my mom as much I could, I found life to be unfair. My mom was a strict woman, who was always under alot of stress and barely showed love. I also lived in a tight controlled environment.
2 years ago, my older sis ratted me out of the closet. She was arguing about her boyfriend to my mom. She said, "if Ranjit can have one why can't I? My sis ran away but I was stuck and trapped, being a full-time student with no income other than my student loan, I couldnt afford to leave my mom's place.
My mom was against the idea of me being gay, she tried to understand it, but the more she seeked for advice in her community of fellow Punjabis of Montréal and our family in india, she began saying offensive things about being gay. She said mean things about my white French-Canadian boyfriend. I never introduced him to my mom, I was affraid of what she'd say. My boyfriend, if I was an indian girl and he was an indian guy, my mom wouldn't hesitate a second before getting us engaged. My boyfriend is the sweetest, nicest guy and he's an engineer, basically one of the top two career choices in Indian families
My mom said many verbally offensive shit. I endured the "hate" that she excused as tough love and that she didn't want me to waste my life. My mom calls me and has denied the fact that im gay. She misses and still cares for me.
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