No one will protect you from your suffering. You can't cry it away or eat it away or starve it away or run it away or even therapy it away. It's just there and you have to endure it. You have to live through it and love it and get through it one day at a time. Start filling your days with things you love. Start focusing on what makes you happy and what matters to you.😌🖤
Picture on the left is from Provincials 2017 👉🏼 right photo taken this week (4 weeks post show). I have gained roughly 12 pounds since my show, my stomach is soft and my abs are gone. (Although my face in these photos states otherwise😂) I'm loving my post show weight gain. I know we see all these transformation posts about losing weight and gaining muscle but for me, my transformation has switched gears. I'm focussing on my health, mental and physical. I enjoy bikini and the sport itself but I lost myself while prepping this year. I think it's SO important that males and females know this before going into a prep -make sure you're healthy mentally and physically before putting your body through the extreme measures a prep requires. Getting lean will not make you happy.
I pushed so hard through this prep and focussed so much on my work, training, meals, cardio, and taking care of everyone else that I neglected myself. I went home from provincials wondering why the hell I wasn't happy yet. This is what I wanted so why do I feel nothing. I realized that I had hit a wall. I'm so proud of myself for getting to this point physically but I'm also so thankful that it has opened my eyes to something SO important - my mental health. My focus for the past 4 weeks has been fuelling my body with healthy foods, exercising because I love to and taking the time to do things that make me happy😌🖤