A year ago, this very week, I was an emotional hot mess.
My depression had come back after laying dormant for several years and I was at my breaking point. I felt desperate.
I was in pain every day, but only those closest to me could tell something was wrong.
Most people didn't know that one minute I'd be hiding in my bathroom, silently sobbing uncontrollably and the next minute I'd pull myself together, dry my eyes, wash my face and carry on with the plan of the day.
Years of depression had taught me the subtle art of disassociating and I knew how to very easily allow myself a break down for just a few moments and then put away the pain and resume "business as usual." I wasn't really living, I was just surviving.
But I wanted to LIVE!!!! And so, I made a CHOICE.
I CHOSE to go on a journey of self-discovery and self-awareness. I got on the road and drove, not knowing exactly where I'd end up, and began my "Freedom Tour." This week, one year ago, I CHOSE MYSELF.
While the Freedom Tour was only a week only, I spent the following 6 months focusing on learning more about empathy, intuition, depression, spiritual gifts, choices, decisions, and the meaning of life.
Here's what I've learned so far:
1. Life has no meaning except the meaning you give it. #hellofreedom
2. Highly Empathetic people are often misdiagnosed with depression because they take on the energy of so many other people and are never properly taught how to clear the space.
Hot damn! I don't have depression. I'M JUST EMPATHETIC - I was holding onto everyone else's sh*t! #morefreedom
3. Life's too short for the fuckery. Do more of what you love and what makes you happy. Do less of everything else. #freefromfuckery
4. SPEAK UP and say the things you need to say even if you're afraid of the reactions and responses you may get. You have a voice, USE IT! Ask for help if you need it. Tell someone when they've offended. ASK for what you want. #themostfreedom
5. Choose YOURSELF unapologetically. A lot of people talk about "self-love" and we think that means getting massages and pedicures, etc. Sure, those are self-love practices, but TRUE SELF-LOVE is choosing yourself and hono