Once upon a time, I was unstoppable and felt invincible. I was so sure of what I was going to be and where I was headed (it was always up. Straight up the mountain). These days, if I can go one day without a new problem presenting its self, it's a miracle. Every step is a tough one.
It's easier for me to pretend everything is okay and bury it down and keep going than it is to share the reality of it. Yesterday was mental health day and I figure I may as well be real about this. It's a struggle. Every. Single. Day. I can't live my life the way that it was, I cant do the things that make me truly happy, and I cant even use the only coping skills that I ever really learned to utilize because those too are physical. My life has drastically done a 180 and I'm trying every day to find my new normal.
Don't ever doubt the power of a kind word, a helping hand, or an open ear. And don't underestimate the effect of a negative word, a bad attitude, or cold shoulder. I have had some seriously supportive people on this road. That being said, I've lost quite a few as well. All of this has an impact.
It turns out, for someone that everyone used to joke about not having feelings, some of them are super real these days. It's a fight to feel okay somedays. It's a fight to want to smile at people even if they've done nothing wrong. It turns out as well, that this can happen to anyone. Depression can hit hard when you least expect it. Don't write people's problems off. Don't ignore their situations. You really have no clue what they may be going through. And honestly, kindness goes a long way.... you need no reason to be a decent human, but if you feel that you do, this is a pretty good one. #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #itsokaynottobeokay #keepfuckinggoing