Everytime someone touches
my soul and leaves a thorn
grows on my skin. Every sweet
word and promise is drenched
with betrayal and poison.
Every time a promise is shattered
a piece of me fades into the
black and grey. And I feel a
fever taking over my body.
Leaving me weak to the bones
choking on my own words. Not knowing what to do. Not knowing
what to say. But those who
come and move out of my way
leave me hollow and ashamed.
Their words linger in the air all
day. Driving me out of my mind. Making me blame myself that I
opened my doors too wide. I
let them walk inside and
scratch the corridors I've
spent time mending and fixing
in the back of my mind. I blame
myself for letting them plant
thorns instead of seeds. Planting
false hopes and dying weeds.
Talking to me about friendships
and connections I've never experienced or had then walking
away and giving me their backs. Leaving me speechless and
paranoid. Thinking if it was my
fault that I'm too much and they
got easily annoyed. Thinking that
I'm nothing but a shadow people carelessly pass by and step on
as I lay helpless bleeding on the ground. Playing a sad tune in
my head over and over again
watering the thought of not
deserving to have any friends
while looking back at all that's happened. I am alone again.
Just me and my boyfriend.
Just me and him. No one else
in between no one else to
watch me fulfill my dreams as
I walk down an empty aisle to
put on my wedding ring in an
old church with silent bells that
refuse to ding dong and play
a happy song so my
heart can sing along.
Despite that all I will stand
strong and tall , trying to
breathe the relief I've spent
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