Today I’m returned to YouTube and yesterday I returned to some social media. But I will not paint you a picture of someone who is doing just fine because I’m not and that’s perfectly okay to say. .
My work gives my mind an outlet to be productive instead of circling the same thoughts again and again. In short, it’s good for me. But it’s important to me that I’m honest with myself and everyone in my life, including these online communities. Most days I still feel all the sadness and heaviness this miscarriage brought. Some days I feel relatively normal and feel guilty every second of it because I’m afraid it means I’ll forget. What I’m trying to say is that loss and grief are incredibly messy situations that make little sense when you’re covered in it. I have good days and bad days but that’s the process. It’s okay to say you aren’t feeling great or that you’re feeling really good. Own every bit of whatever you’re feeling because it’s important you do. It doesn’t feel like it but it’s helping you get through this. One day you’ll be in a different place and all any of us can do is work towards that day🌱