How's everyone doing? Hanging in as the school year gets closer to the end and summer (camps? no camps? travel? no travel?) looms ahead. I'm surviving here, working hard on turning three years of lists into a readable book. Still accepting guest #MomLists, so please send me your lists to momlists at gmail! Link to submission guidelines in bio! Much love! -Minna
I got a guest list here for you from Ori Lenkinski, a writer/dancer/choreographer who lives in Tel Aviv. She is the mother of Louie, age 5, and Lev, 7.5 weeks(!), (hence the list). I especially love what she writes about bargaining. I find I do that kind of bargaining all the time with myself. I definitely did it when I'd rock my daughter to sleep and watch the clock, "Okay, I won't do this for more than 12 minutes, and if she's not asleep in 12 minutes, I'm calling it quits." Etc. Ori wrote this momlist in the middle of the night so, understandably, it's a bit hard to read a spot or two. The text is included below.
Check Ori's work out at www.creativewriting.me.
THE 5 STAGES OF BEING WOKEN UP IN THE NIGHT:
1. DENIAL- “Did I really hear someone say ‘Mama’? Must have been a dream…” 2. ANGER- Sitting in her room, holding her hand, waiting for her to give in to sleep, I think of all the people sleeping in my house and my street, the world and I feel RAGE!
3. BARGAINING- I begin to count minutes thinking, ‘If I get back to sleep by 1:45 AM, I’ll still get at least a few hours before the little one wakes up.’ By 2:15 AM I’m back to STAGE 2.
4. DEPRESSSION- I’ll NEVER SLEEP AGAIN! Waves of insecurity, self-criticism, shame engulf me.
5. ACCEPTANCE- No longer feeling tired, I turn to social media and become so taken with feeds and stories that I can’t fall asleep long after the house is again still.