Good morning my friends. I fear this may be a long post. I'm only a little sorry 😀 Welcome to a bit more of our story. **********************************
Today is one of those days. A day that started me on my journey towards finding every day lovely and redefined what that looks like. An anniversary of sorts that you kind of wish wasn't your story but couldn't imagine any other way. You see, 2 yrs ago today we handed our sweet son Caedmon over to the surgeons at Boston Children's Hospital for his bilateral amputation surgery .
Sitting there in that waiting room, surrounded by dear ones, I couldn't help but feel like I was looking at them thru a hazy tunnel. My mind so far away, was aching to hold my sweet, chubby almost 8 month old. Shield him from this world. It's one of those things, that leaves an imprint on your soul and you are forever different. We all have seasons like that, I am not unique, where we stand there, eyes heavenward, screaming "do you see any of this?" My Job season and really, it started much earlier. At 12 weeks finally pregnant with our miracle baby, the doctor looked me in the eyes and said, "I don't think I see legs." And the wind leaves your lungs and you start to sink.
At 15 weeks pregnant he had a name, Caedmon, old English for 'wise warrior' because you could tell he was a little fighter and we wanted him to fight all his days with wisdom from above. 6 weeks earlier my momma had found out she had metastatic breast cancer. A season that changes the way you navigate life. And you realize, even in the storm, that lovely is there if you seek it, a difficult thing to do when you're working hard just to breathe. But the choosing to seek it can change you. Our faith buoyed us, Community held us. And we kept breathing. Moment by moment, day by day. Even in that waiting room. .
For you Cade, my smart, kind, agile little warrior we celebrate the day, 2 yrs ago that took something away in order to give you the world. My little prince running through life on bilateral below the knee prosthetics. You do some things differently but don't we all? You are lovely.
I wish you all buoying hope and tangible lovely today ❤️ #motherhood #momheart