A dear friend spotted me on display on a yoga exhibition. It took me a while to recognize myself because the quality of the picture he sent me was not the best, but clearly in the print he could see my face, feet and body.
I don't mind if someone prints my photos and decides to make a business out of them. I understand I'm a continuous creator of social media content and I mean to do it. What makes me angry and annoys me is that this photos were taken 5/6 years ago and were not released out to the public, because they were the beginning of a personal journey, one where I started dealing with my fears, my body dismorphya, seeing myself as a sexually empowered human being, and recognizing the magnificence of my being as it was portrayed thorough someone else's eyes.
I think that we are everyone's mirror and if someone sees beauty in the imperfection of this particular picture, means they acknowledged their own beauty and I'm happy for them and in return, for me as nowadays it's my intent. However, I didn't share this pictures on this platform because the inner perfectionist always told me there's something that could've been better or look better or whatever. I don't even have a copy of this album since I've moved and changed hard drives So many times. This in turn, makes me wonder how did this person got ahold of my photos, when they were not of public display? Was I hacked? Did the photographer violated the agreements and release the photos without my consent? What do I do now? And why did they sell them?
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