Happy Birthday Maddux!!! I never got to teach him to walk!
I never got to teach him his ABC's!
We never got to play tag or jump on the trampoline!
He never got a chance to sneak in my bed late at night when monsters were in his room!
There are no drawings on my walls left by his mischievous lil hands or mud prints left behind by his lil feet!
I'll never take his picture at his junior prom or even walk him down the isle at his wedding! I'll never wipe his tears brought on by his first heart break!
I'll never hold my grandbaby who would of had such an amazing father!
But I did teach him about a mother's love!
I taught him I never left his sight momma was there by his side through ever needle pokes and surgeries!
I taught him that he had a family who loved him!
I taught him he was never alone!
I taught him to laugh, to hug, to kiss to love!
That's what I got to do in his short life with me!
I should be making a cake, a special one as I do for my other boys! Instead I'm reminiscing on all that I have left of my baby.. memories! It's been over 12 years since I've touched, hugged and kissed my baby! 12 years that I've had to look up to the skies to tell him "I love you!". But today will be a happy one.. cause today is proof I had THREE boys! Happy 13 Birthday Maddux Joseph Candido Rogers! And once again I will stand strong at your grave and look up to the heavens and say "I love you"!
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