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+ anthony bourdain. || 👨🏼🍳🖤⠀⠀
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we lost a lot of greatness this year & this one really stung… longtime influence. so many things about him resonate with me. he was a writer, chef, traveler, TV personality, ex-drug addict, realist, hedonist... his favorite food was Vietnamese. he had an operating principle that he was eagerly willing to be wrong about everything. he always gave tribute to the way the restaurant business can pound humility into a person, & the way his time as a drug addict gave him skills he used in his success. he was very Type A about certain things, needed control, but thought other things — like the act of eating, embracing a new culture, or writing — should be a submissive experience. he was aware of his appetites & didn’t let them take control — claimed his whole life was a series of strategies to outsmart the lesser version of him living inside. (integral for me.) i could go on…
the way he articulated his life & the world planted seeds in me as a kid that have helped me try to form my identity. i always felt this clash between the side of me i got from my mom & Vietnamese heritage, & the weird, artsy, rebellious side that i was suppressing to “fit in.” he showed me a major example of how those passions can coexist inside the same person, long before i started learning how to embrace my individuality a little more tastefully & let my freak flag fly.
he was as real as they get. that’s often a result of being painfully self-aware.. which can be powerful in a great way, clearly, but can also lead to a certain kind of end if not handled well enough — a fact we’re all coming to know all too well & which unfortunately, i’m familiar with.
he bought a piece of art right before he left us. i added a picture of it to my bedroom wall the morning i found out. it’s called, ‘The sky is falling, I am learning to live with it.’ rest easy to the GOAT. ⠀⠀