Part 2 cont... Nick “moved in” or should I say he never left after our first date. 3 years later we were married, living in Maryland and expecting our first baby. We were passionately in love … or so that is what I thought.
For 10 years I loved this man and gave him everything. I called it “love” but why did I believe accepting the unacceptable was “love”? I didn’t understand at the time that I actually was “loving him to death”. The disease of alcoholism sneaks up on you. It lies to you and tells you that everything is fine and you are over reacting. It slowly sucks the life out of you and makes the only joy you feel dependent on something or someone else. My happiness revolved around his addiction and I was dying slowly right along side of him.
I spent years trying to “fix” him, fix us … but it only got worse. I ended up feeling numb and my “love” turned to resentment. Finally 7 1/2 years after we said “I do”, with two small children, no job, no money, no plan of how I could even do life without him, and a very broken heart, I asked for a divorce.
That is when the MIRACLE happened…. _
Stay tuned for part 3
PS: My husband said all great stories are told in “trilogies” ... aka this is the Empire Strikes Back post😆)
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