I've never really been comfortable in my own skin. I've always been able to find little pieces wrong with certain areas. Having gone through some very tough and life changing events in my life, they, unfortunately, brought to the surface the depression and anxiety and that was lingering inside of me.
It's extremely hard dealing with mental illness, and I've always found it difficult standing in front of a mirror looking at myself. I would always find something wrong, something that isn't right, something different that I compared to others. Dealing with mental health makes me see the "imperfections."
Social media has been awful place for myself, especially as of late. With anxiety and now having also developed PTSD, social media is a breathing ground for those negative voices to come out and speak to me. For those damaging comments to come right back to the front of my mind.
I did this shoot because I wanted to feel beautiful again. I really wanted to start becoming more confident in the way I look and the way I feel about my body. I'm tired of constantly judging myself and having certain voices and comments linger in my mind. Comments that I think of and comments that have been said to me.
Never did I ever once think about doing this shoot for attention - and it's sucks that I feel like I need to state that. That had nothing to do with it. Feeling beautiful is something every woman/man needs to feel, and doing this shoot was such an amazing step for myself. Seeing the photos, I couldn't believe that was me.
I am so grateful for this photos, the photographer - Jennie, and my amazing group of family and friends that I surround myself with who make me feel beautiful inside and out each day. Every shape and size is beautiful, and you should never let anyone or anything tell you otherwise.