The shades of light and dark inspire contemplation, and ultimately remind me of song I wrote...When I was 15 years old I got really high, opened up garage band for the first time and freestyled a track I named changes. It recently came on during shuffle and I was struck by the beginnings of contemplating self acceptance and my place in this worlds. Here are my opening rambles (I’ve always been great at rambling): .
I’ve realised there will always be change in the world, and if there wasn’t it would stop spinning.
What would happen if someone just gave up?
Stopped doing what society wanted and was just happy being them.
What if they stopped listening and caring about wealth,
And instead focused all their energy on staying,
Would it be so bad?
After all that’s how I want to live my life,
Just being me.
About a year ago I began to change,
The days got shorter,
Nights got longer,
Though really it was me who was keeping unearthly hours,
Neglecting the days,
And savouring the nights.
I started to believe I could only be me in the dark,
And would lay in bed waiting to escape,
Until I could unleash myself on the world.
I wasn’t really thinking,
I was living in the moment,
And now it’s come to it and I realise maybe,
Really I should’ve been one of those girls who stayed in and had Jonathan Ross as they’re only Friday night friend.
Well I chose to replace the funny man with a bottle of cheap wine,
And now have some forgotten memories,
Not to mention some things I really shouldn’t have done.
Well, that’s the thing about growing up and changing,
You have to learn from your mistakes.
There’s no change without faults,
I’ve definitely had mine,
I guess maybe the world does need to change,
Perhaps not in the way people think they should.
Maybe we should just be,
That’s change enough for me.