I told @heartsparks I would never let anyone else know about that time I wore her crystal crown...in my pjs with my messy bed hair... but here it is. This was a pretty dark time in my life earlier this year when I was feeling really unstable and questioning everything. Little did I know, I was preparing myself for a massive shift and that a little instability often comes as you move in the space between your current self and the next phase of growth.
I think my whole life I have felt like Alice when she shrinks and almost drowns in her own tears, wishing that she hadn’t cried so much. Even when I was doing well in my business a couple of years ago, before I stepped back, i was still beholden to my emotions and my limbic brain, actively trying to protect me from pain at all costs.
When you’re a highly sensitive soul, pain is a given. We feel it so deeply and so often. But we also feel joy and all the good ones deeply too. I wouldn’t change that but I’m so grateful that I’m learning how to drop some of those protection mechanisms. We’re taught that it’s not safe to feel but, I promise you, it is. And if you allow yourself to feel what’s moving through you with ease and without resistance, you will start to see that emotion (or energy in motion) is fleeting and will often dissipate as quickly as it has come up.
But back to the crystal crown. I don’t want to sugar coat this shit. Energy work and tuning into my highly sensitive self has not been a walk in the park. But it’s been so much better. The more I tune into my own energy and my highly sensitive self, dropping the stories and identities and labels, the more I see and feel that I hadn’t seen before. The crystal crown is not just a super cute accessory, but the second I put it on, I felt all the frazzled and frantic energy in my body (especially in my mind) start to fall into line and shift into a stream of ease. This was a totally new sensation for me and an indication of what 2018 was bringing my way. Working with my energy has helped my health and well-being immensely and it’s meant I’m better able to show up for the people in my life and hold space for my clients.