DAY 12, 13 & 14:
#embracethesquish #cellulitesaturday #selfcaresunday
I took a few day hiatus from the #selflovebootcamp due to an emotional/hard weekend. In these days I was not in a good place. I have mental patterns that I continue use even while knowing they aren't the best. I get so fixated on the negative. I shut down. I doubt and think poorly of myself. I get extremely moody and irrational. I say things I don't necessarily mean or don't say anything at all. I'm trying to understand why. And maybe I'll never know exactly. But what I do know is I don't want to continue this unhealthy pattern. I want to break free of it. I don't want to treat other people badly because I feel badly. I don't want to hurt others because I'm hurting. I'm hopeful I will one day be able to control my emotions in a manner that allows me to talk/freely express them without being hurtful. I also want to be able to listen and hear what another person is saying before reacting irrationally or angrily. I'll get there. I know I can. But until then I'm trying to except where I am and but continue to strive for that growth.
All that being said I'm back to doing the #selflovebootcamp and will fully catch up tomorrow 💗
#messyassroom #bedhead #iwokeuplikethis #embraceitall