"It's been a year since I got my Master's and still haven't secured a job." "How could he introduce himself to Daddy and talk a good game but cut me off like I'm a nobody?" "I always feel nervous/awkward around ppl." "Lawrence I'm so sorry..." "Maybe I should give up on RSM, this isn't a traditional job and I don't think ppl are feeling my mental health posts." "How are you trying to give hope but feel hopeless?" "I know I'm not lazy, but I always feel tired." "I need to see a therapist, but Bahamians don't believe in stuff like that." "Am I not praying hard enough?" "Keep cutting your hair until you've healed. At least it's cute." These are just some thoughts I had in the last 30 minutes that I'm willing to share at the moment.
My name is Tezel Lightbourne, and this what poor mental health looks like. I personally don't like attention, and most don't care for long winded posts, but I stopped doing things for likes a while ago. It will reach and touch the people that it's meant to. People tend to have a specific image when they think about what people with emotional trauma and mental illness look like (especially in the Black community). So if acknowledging and ridding my chronic toxic thoughts can inspire someone else to get help, then I have done my job.
I had decided to step away from all my platforms until next year so I can "look the part", but I'm so grateful for my sister @regally_touched and friend/Sorority sister @richeae_themua for reminding me to boss up, jump scared, it's not about me, and sharing my story as I evolve can encourage and even save a life.
Regal State of Mind is not having a perfect mental health state, but it's choosing to set your minds on the things above in the midst of life's obstacles. It's a long journey, so please be patient with me, but this life is a gift and I want to LIVE while I'm alive. I hope you join me because I want the same for you. 👑💚 #RegalStateOfMind #PolishingOurCrownsTogether #ForLawrence #ForMyself