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Follow me! @pillfox // holy fuck no I don't want to "join your team" or buy your stupid fucking lipstick stop messaging me and adding me to groups god damn I'll stick to sephora and mac

it's very important to take mental illnesses seriously. Please don't tell us that our mental illness is a phase. I got that a lot and still do with my anxiety and depression !!

The best feeling in the world is watching things finally fall into place after watching them fall apart for so long ๐ŸŒž
Since struggling with crippling mental illness that has kept me hospitalised on and off since 2012 I can finally say I am beginning to see the light. I am not saying I don't have my bad days, but I am saying that these 'bad' days are now further and further apart.
I lost my whole teenage years to mental illness and I don't want to do that in my 20's. I am now educated and know myself well enough to know when to speak up and seek help - I hope by sharing my triumphs and battles I can inspire others to do the same.
I hope you also know that if you are not feeling 'okay' that it's always acceptable to seek help even just for an evaluation. As I truly believe prevention is better than cure - so getting help early can prevent a total breakdown later on.
Remember, it's okay to not be okay. But never okay to suffer in silence. โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ

[ B R E A T H L E S S ]
Dearest girl,
There is something about the way you spin my soul on your axis; roaming the globe as though there is everything on offer and nothing left to be afraid of.
Your voice settles oh so carefully in my lungs like the paper-thin cocoons of a thousand butterflies waiting to bloom.
You are too full of life;
too real;
too confrontational of my fears;
and I am all the more in awe of you for all of it.
Everything about you speaks in volumes that seep unashamedly into my silence.
You kiss wildfire into my ember soul, and as you draw my oxygen into flame and set my world alight, you leave me breathless...
A little prose caption to accompany this shorter one. What do you think, are you feeling it? Art: @noah_s_ark .
#writingcommunity #spilledink #writersofinstagram #poetsofinstagram #poetrycommunity #prose #poets #poetryisnotdead #typewriterpoetry #instapoem #empowerment #igpoets #wordporn #women #quote #wordswithqueens #wordswithkings #rmdrake #wordsmith #feminist #herheartpoetry #bymepoetry #lovequotes #writing #love #mentalhealth #qotd #poetry #poem #selflove

This image is my work I drew it with my god damn fingers!!! #shithead#mentalhealth#mentalhealthawareness

you are all so wonderful. ๐Ÿ’›
someone on my last post said something that I think is really important โ†“
"try not to become a person of success, but rather try to become a person of value."
let's all try to be better humans, okay? #ibelieveinyou
@mentalkilter #mentalkilterwarrior
photo: @hofstade

Thanking the old me for being strong enough to create the new me. I wish I would have loved you more at the time. ๐Ÿ’•
#mondaymotivation #thankful #myjourney #fitspiration #fitness #igotthis #itsajourney #strong #mentalhealth #mental #healthy #lifestyle #justdoit #dontgiveup #struggle #rewards

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Hoofing to receive some photos from Tom Hardy training and working on set in his Royal Marines BJJ Rashguard and Shorts. He wanted to show his appreciation and express how much he has trained and worked in his RMBJJ kit, taking it all over the World with him. If your a Veteran and would like to get involved in Jiu Jitsu please message REORG directly @royalmarinesjiujitsu #reorg #royalmarinescharity #royalmarinesbjj #royalnavybjj #stateofmind #ufc #royalmarinescommando #bjj #jiujitsu #bjjlifestyle #jiujitsulifestyle #wedefyfoundation #military #militaryjiujitsu #vetransjiujitsu #mentalhealth #combatstress #ptsd #commando #greenberet #cagewarriors #tomhardy #leonardodicaprio @grapplersplanet @bjjstyle @jits_magazine


Detail from the #stainedglass in my #melbourne hotel. STOMP UPON YOUR #anxiety and unhelpful thoughts today!
Be kind to (but wary of) dragons in real life though.

Broken people are usually the kindest people deep down ๐Ÿ–ค
#loving #begoodtoyourheart #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #love #loveyourself #broken #bekind

This could have a thousand meanings to a thousand people. I like it.

I made this amazing salad yesterday after the gym (after that last post) and I felt great while creating it.
That wave of nothing? Was just that, a wave.
Someone commented about EFT and working out like being a hard therapy session in a way, with the muscles 'releasing shit' and it made a lot of sense!
I think this is part of what happens to me after a great workout (there are other factors of course, always layered, always complex!)
I'm so glad I shared yesterday, I was confused and intrigued by that experience and through sharing and discussing with you all in the comments, I learnt and discovered a lot.
Thank you all for being so candid and joining me in talking openly about mental health, it really just is like any other part of our health and nothing to shy away from all be afraid of discussing.
Anyway this is a salad!
It tasted amazing. I tried to film a YouTube video while making it, fingers crossed I don't ditch the footage.
Today I'm headed off to the second island to explore on a scooter and go snorkeling all day!
I hope you all have a wonderful day, whatever you're doing wherewver you are!
#healthyeating #healthysalad #vegetarianrecipes #veganrecipes #foodbloggers #foodblogging #youtuber #saladfingers #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #talkaboutit

That feeling at the end of the day... Anybody else ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜‚
Want to know something crazy... I've had so much going in my head... I actually gave myself a temperature ๐Ÿ˜ณ now that is what I call overheating the brain ๐Ÿ˜ต๐Ÿ˜ต not ideal haha
So, The way I deal with a busy mind is to get that sh*t out!!! ๐Ÿ“Write your to-do list! Not on your phone, but with pen and paper ๐Ÿ˜ฑ whaaaat?! The feeling of putting pen to paper is a huge release from the brain physically and mentally ๐Ÿ˜Œ
Second, get a piece of paper, set a timer for 2 minutes, and write. Everything.
I mean everything that comes to mind. Chicken, duck, paper, pimple... just continually write for the whole 2 minutes.
It is so refreshing when you finish. At first you don't think you'll have anything but as long as you keep the momentum of writing flowing, it's like word vomit ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚
Now that we have our sh*t sorted we can sleep peacefully with out a busy mind ๐Ÿ˜Œ give these a try next time all your tabs are open and you can relax! ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ
Give it a try for a peaceful night sleep ๐Ÿ˜˜

Going to therapy should be a point of pride, not a source of shame.

Good morning from me & my beautiful bunny ๐Ÿฐ๐Ÿ˜ด I barely slept last night as my brain wouldn't turn off from thinking over several things that were discussed in yesterday's MH appointments. Honestly, I'm still processing it all. But today is here already and I'm trying my best to make it a good day. I've a few big challenges today and I feel exhausted just thinking about the different things I know I have to do. This week in general is a busy, challenging week for me. But, I can do this. I have to do this. And at least when I've finished all the scary tasks and appointments I can come home to my two bunnies and my little cat, and just drown myself in furry cuddles ๐Ÿ˜Œ #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #depression #anxiety #ptsd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #positivity #rabbit #dutchrabbit #rabbitsofinstagram #bunniesofinstagram #cute #primrose #primroseandmatilda #cuddles #goodmorning #animallover #๐Ÿฐ

I'm not sure exactly when it happened, but gradually food has become the enemy again. It took until last night for me to really realise how far backwards I've gone. Having an anxiety attack because people will see me eat, stressfully trying to choose the meal with the least calories and reducing the calorie count further by avoiding all the cheese and toppings on the plate. Wanting ice cream more than anything in the world and struggling not to cry at the table when the idea of dessert was shut down immediately by insults and rules my own brain made up. The breakdown that followed once I was home.
The problem I have regarding recovery is that as soon as one of my illnesses get worse, the rest follow and it snowballs. And since I've bluntly been told that I don't need help and have had 5 rejections from the service I need to get better, there isn't much of a chance for me to recover from any of my illnesses.
#ed #edwarrior #ednos #edrecovery #mentalhealth #mentalillness #anxiety #depression #ptsd #trauma #suicide #food #vegetarian

Started writing on my new book project back in June. I'm quite sure it's going to be a deeply infectious one. It's titled "Dancing With My Demons" (for starters) ...something most of us are all too familiar with in this thing called LIFE. I'm thrilled to be writing again. #writer #writersofinstagram #writerslife #philosophy #empowerment #abuse #domesticviolence #suicide #addiction #attachment #narcissism #dancingwithdemons #society #pain #health #wellness #mentalhealth #mind #soul #lettinggo #tigressg #Vegas

Last visit..?
Yesterday I took the boat in to see my mother together with my sister. The doctor had told me that if we wanted some sort of response then the timing was short. When we arrived at the hospital they had moved her from the ICU to the oncology department. She will not stay but will be moved to hospice as soon as she gets a place there.
It was good seeing her with my sister but it was also clear and visible that our relationship to our mother is vastly different. She was so sweet to her and it was all genuine and real. With me it felt like frozen in action : doing things like stroking her arm and saying stuff like "you're a fighter". And it was also clear that my mother actually responded to my sister in a way that she didn't with me.
And during the minutes that I was left alone with my mother she looked at me. And those eyes scared me; I was all of a sudden afraid of her rage. Or maybe it was death.
This grief is so complicated. She harmed us both in very different ways. And I couldn't say things like "I forgive you" - not even in the presence of death. I did however say "I love you". Even though I didn't feel safe enough that she wouldn't lash out. Which was ridiculous since she in no shape or form or had the strength nor the capacity to do anything but survive.
I think that yesterday was the last time ever that I saw my mother. Right now I feel to drained to go through the ordeal of seeing her. Bad daughter maybe. #adultchildrenofnarcissists #codependent #mentalhealth #medberoende #mind #cptsd #cptsdrecovery #ptsd #anxiety #adultchildrenofalcoholics

You fall, you rise, you make mistakes, you live, you learn. You're human, not perfect. You've been hurt, but you're alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive - to breathe, to think, to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey, but there is also lots of beauty. We must keep putting one foot in front of the other even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend. โ€• Unknown

Good Morning All!

We are our Morning Rituals!

We all know stress is a normal part of life. It is a healthy reaction that is meant to be uncomfortable. It is nature's way of telling you that something is wrong and that you need to put it right.

However, when stress becomes sustained over a long period of time including late nights, it can start to make our body more acidic making us more likely to experience anxiety and depression, and other physical health problems such as high blood pressure.

Lemon water - a beautiful way to keep that mind and body of yours alkaline and healthy.

#lemonwater #mindbody #staycalm #solutionfocused #health #strength #habit #morningrituals #autopilot #moodstabiliser #mentalhealth #physicalhealth

โ€ู„ุงุฒุงู„ ููŠ ุงู„ุฏู†ูŠุง ุฌู…ุงู„ูŒ ูŠุณุชุญู‚ ุฃู† ู†ุจุชุณู… ู„ู‡ โ™ฅ๏ธ๐ŸŽผ
ุตุจุงุญ ุงู„ุฌู…ุงู„

ูุทูˆุฑูŠ ุงู„ูŠูˆู… ุจุงู† ูƒูŠูƒ ุตุญูŠ ูˆุญู„ูŠุจ ู‚ู„ูŠู„ ุงู„ุฏุณู… .. ๐Ÿ‘‡
ุฑุจุน ูƒูˆุจ ุทุญูŠู† ุจุฑ
ุฑุจุน ูƒูˆุจ ุทุญูŠู† ุงุจูŠุถ
ุนู„ุจู‡ ุญู„ูŠุจ ุงุจูˆ ู‚ูˆุณ ู‚ู„ูŠู„ ุงู„ุฏุณู…
ุธุฑู ุณุชูŠููŠุง
ู…ู„ุนู‚ู‡ ุจุงูƒู†ุฌ ุจุงูˆุฏุฑ
ุดูˆูŠู‡ ูุงู†ูŠู„ุง
ูˆุงู„ุตูˆุต ู…ู„ุนู‚ู‡ ุนุณู„ ูˆู…ู„ุนู‚ู‡ ุฒุจุฏู‡ ุงู„ููˆู„ ุงู„ุณูˆุฏุงู†ูŠ ูˆุดูˆูŠ ุณูŠุฑุจ ุดูˆูƒู„ุงุชู‡ ุฎุงู„ูŠ ู…ู† ุงู„ุณูƒุฑ .. ู„ุฐูŠุฐ ู„ุฐุงุฐู‡ ู… ุญุตู„ุชุด ๐Ÿ˜‚ .. #healthyfood
#healthylifestyle #mentalhealth #health #healthy #eatclean #cleaneating #diet #ุฏุงูŠุช #ุฏุงูŠุช_ุตุญูŠ #ุฏุงูŠุชูŠูˆู† #ุฏุงูŠุช_ุงู„ู…ุญุจูˆุจ #ุฏุงูŠุช_ุนุฑุจ #ุฑุฌูŠู… #ุตุญู‡ #ุจุงู†_ูƒูŠูƒ #ุงู„ุณุนูˆุฏูŠู‡

Slowly taking my life back. And I am soooo proud. And it all started with being asked to do makeup for 3 photoshoots. I settled with a part time job to just have extra income. It wasn't bad , but it wasn't me. I didn't enjoy it. And honestly I had to deal with some racism. And then a wonderful lady I met years ago when I worked at Sephora asked me to do makeup. I said yes with out thinking about if my job would let me have the day off ... I knew they werent gonna let me , and i knew no one would cover my shift. I mean who wants to work 8 hours & close on a weekend during summer ... no one. Just then my boyfriend mentioned I would possibly be able to work with him during the week PT.. well I ran with it. It was gonna allow me to have extra money AND do makeup . So I quit my job, I did the makeup... and guess what.. I felt amazing . After the the photo shoot I drove me happy ass home feeling like my old self. I've given up makeup for 3+ years . I lost my passion.. then all of a sudden it was back. Now I have a wedding at the end of august , and then another next year . I'm now working on getting back into accepting bookings. And now I'm working on myself , mentally , emotionally and physically. All things take time. And sometimes you have to fall apart in order to build yourself up. A better , more stronger you. Thank you those who have been there for me. It means more then y'all would ever know. But a big thank you to @samburgey , thank you for trusting me with makeup and thank you for helping take the steps to a healthier me. #takingcareofme #takebackmylife #weightloss #weightlossjourney #beachbody
#mua #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalillnessrecovery #seattlemua

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