Breakfast was this (I ate the majority of the 1st piece before taking the pic lol 😂) + apple juice 👊 •
I wanted to let you know:
• you don’t have to excersize cuz you’ve just eaten.
• you don’t have to eat at a certain time at a certain moment.
• you don’t have to be eating specific foods at every meal- you can eat whatever you want.
• you don’t have to be active- even if it’s been 2 weeks of sitting in your room.
• you don’t have to live up to EVERYONE’S (or your own) standards.
OCD, if you want to visualize it, is a mental checklist that restarts daily. It lists things like, “eat x amnt of calories” “excersize x amount of minutes” “have a lot of x, but not too much of x” “get rid of x” and the list goes on. There are so many expectations people who struggle with OCD put on themselves. If those expectations aren’t met, the anxiety that comes afterwards is excruciatingly painful. To me, it feels like guilt pours from the inside out and nothing can make me feel better- see why the checklist becomes important to those struggling with OCD? It doesn’t feel good when the checklist is not filled. The rule books we make for ourselves are dense and strict. And, unfortunately, the only way to break out of the vicious cycle is to repeatedly break the rules and leave the checklist blank. We have to go against what our OCD expects us to do. And it sounds SOOO much easier than it is.
Anyways, please take my reminder to thought. You are allowed to sit and read or be on your phone. Hell, I’m doing just that right now 😂 you don’t have to walk an extra mile or drink x amount of water in a day or any other thinkable priority. However, what you do need to do is step back and relax. This applies to anyone under any circumstance; OCD, anorexia, EDNOS, orthorexia, bulimia, BDD, anxiety disorder, depression, etc. you’re not alone and you deserve to have a day where the only expectation you have is to see how long you can stay relaxed ☯️