Both my little ones sound asleep snuggled in blankets. Good that they’re behaved today as my legs are fried from yesterday 😂 they make al the shit I went through worth it. I may only get to see them a couple of days a week but I make sure I spend every second with them. I put them both to sleep separately and I make sure I’m there for each of them when they wake up so they can have ‘daddy cuddles’ .
There were a few times when I was at my lowest and almost ended it all.. I had gotten so far down the hole that I thought even they would be better off without me. But my beautiful (super distant) better half @purpleheartdollx helped me realise that not only would it devastate her and her little man but it would utterly destroy these 2 precious little angels. And now there is nothing that will make me get to that point again because I finally realise just how much damage I would have done if I succeeded. I also realise who the true people who care are. Because funnily enough I reached out to people who are supposed to give a damn or be there and just got ignored so a big old fuck you to you 👊🏻 you know who you are. And the ones who have been there for me whether it be continually or just a random check in when you can I thank you... you also know who you are 🙏🏻 don’t ever let yourself get to the point of thinking even your own children are better off without you.. because no matter what situation you’re in or how bad you’re struggling your children ALWAYS NEED YOU. I used to think it was a ‘cowards way out’ but now being hit with the situation myself I realise it’s not but it is in a sense a selfish act. Because yes you end your pain.. but all you do is transfer that pain to many others. So please speak out and get help before you make a decision you can’t reverse.
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