.Yeah I remember the colours.
The wholehearted smiles and questions. Completely being and yet always driven to search for the undiscovered.
.It's like somebody else owns my life. It truly is. I lost control over it piece by piece. Yet it's so hard to identify because it's not a person and it's not a thing. At least not until you know what it is and have fully admitted it to yourself which may sound like but does not equal coming to peace with it.
Suddenly you are on an iceberg sometimes drowning in a giant, cold and lonely ocean and sometimes just sitting on top of it, disconnected from yourself, the outside world, people, just about everything.
And you can't escape.
There is no escape.
At first you don't even realize the depth and the giant size of the problem, you're only sitting on the tip of the iceberg and you learn more about it and it becomes more and more normal and just a part of life, or life, the more you keep drowning when it pulls you down. The more often you have to face it the more familiar it becomes.
.I'm sorry for ruining the perfect that we had.
.At times you wonder. Even if you've already reached your limit but you can't leave the situation, it just keeps getting more and more, it's not under your control, what do you do? How do you leave? How do you escape when there is no escape? What do you do when you have to life under circumstances that you can not live under?You don't. That's how _______ becomes the only option.
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