So this just happened yesterday when I went into a clothing store here in Suriname...She looked me Up and Down like I was something weird or gross and turned to my friend and in Dutch said, “Oh I thought she was Skinnier” (she also commented about my nails but 🤷🏾♀️) I was so shocked and for a second all those horrible feelings of self hate came rushing back but left just as fast as they came and all my self love that I worked so hard on came flooding in and reminded me how
F$#*ing Beautiful I am from the INSIDE out. It took a long time for me to love my body, & no I am not exactly where I want to be fitness wise but I LOVE MYSELF & MY BODY too much to let anyone’s opinions mess that up. I was so busy self affirming myself (something that I do daily) that I really didn’t have time to tell her that your worried about my size when you need to be worried about your eyebrows... but what good would that have done? no happy and positive person would think to say something like that to another person... so just in case you didn’t know that I was curvy (even tho I always post full body pics and post YouTube videos showing my entire body) here is a picture I took TODAY & I’m still smiling. For anyone who suffers with self hate & self doubt, it will past as long as you work on loving yourself exactly where you are! Everything else will fall into place. The best thing that I ever could have done was LOVE ME NOW & not wait till I lost the extra 30 or so pounds.