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MOST RECENT

Tb to christmassss🎄ngl I’m vvv frustrated atm😖I spoke with the dietitian and said if they took me off the tube I’d swear to genuinely eat the whole meal plan but she doesn’t believe me & won’t take me off it no matter what I do so I have no control of the situation at all which is v hard😭I even asked if she’d atleast give me a chance and that they could put the tube back in the minute I don’t finish something but she said she can’t risk me losing out on any nutrition right now cos it’s too dangerous😭I honestly hate it so much cos I genuinely would eat the meal plan at this stage because the tube stresses me out even more than eating, like I thought I’d find it easier cos it’s not my choice but I really dont😖like atleast eating ends yk, like the tube doesn’t and it actually causes me so much anxiety every time I hear the rotator yoke move which is literally every like 30 seconds😭but ik I have to remember it is only temporary even though it doesn’t feel like it! It’s also just v irritating cos I know that to leave I need to be off the tube & eating my meal plan so it feels like having me on the tube instead of the meal plan is an extra step away from getting me out PLUS causing me extra anxiety so there’s like no positive to it😞but I suppose I’ve just got to try & trust the process🙃




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What a way to be spending my 17th birthday🙃lil reminder that when your eating disorder tells you you will be/were happier in hospital tis bull okay! Ik that seems like common sense but I also know how manipulative Ed’s can be and they can convince you of things like that, so I just want to remind you as someone in that situation that if you feel like that your ed is LYINGGGG! Hospital is hell xxx (feel like this seems weird to say but I have seen a lot of posts recently of people believing they were happier in hospital so wanna remind everyone that’s your eds bullshit & don’t fall for it💗)





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Lunch before MORE uni work😒😳 -
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Lunch is the usual 2 pieces of 50/50 bread🍞 with an extra light laughing cow cheese triangle🧀 2 slices of wafer thin chicken🍗 and a Oykos Greek style strawberry yogurt🍓 -
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I was getting too comfortable with the Activia yogurts so I thought I’d challenge myself to something a little more calorie dense🙈😳 -
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I had work this morning and honestly I’m so ready to just sleep and cry😭 I don’t know why but I’m sat here now with such an anxious feeling in my chest like I just need to burst out into tears but I feel like I won’t stop😖 I’m so exhausted and just done with everything, I’m so weak and I feel like I can’t fight anymore😓 -
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I’ve had so many people pass comments over the past couple of days about my weight dropping and I’m so scared because honestly, I really don’t see it?! This is such a bitch of an illness and I really want to escape but I’m finding it so hard doing it on my own😥 yet I’m scared to ask for more help?! How does that even make sense😖😕 -
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I had my referral letter from the hospital come through yesterday too! I’ve got my 24 hour heart monitor being fitted next Friday and I’m so so scared! I’ve got to be at the hospital for 8:30am in the morning of the Friday! Why so damn early😅 so tragic! -
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I’m going to try and get lunch down me and then try and do some essay work😞 I just want to sleep! Also, it’s snowing here☃️❄️ and it’s FREEZING! If anyone needs me, I’ll be sat up against the radiator😂 -
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How is everyone? ❤️❤️❤️ -
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Breakfast and Uni work😒🙈🙈🙈 -
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Challenge for breakfast🙋🏻‍♀️😱 is 40g coco pops🍫 with unsweetened almond milk🥛 along with a Warburtons toasting muffin🍞 topped with a little butter and strawberry jam🍓 -
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Why’s this a challenge?? Chocolate cereal🍫 THATS why! For what seems like forever, Ana has screamed telling me that chocolate cereal is forbidden, that’s there’s no need for it...well, bitch, move aside because Sasha’s is eating chocolate cereal!!!!😍😍😍 -
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So, minor #recoverywin last night guys!!! I went to a flat party for a friends birthday at uni and I was meant to be heading into town afterwards BUT remember the last few times it ended in purging etc...this girl took herself away and went to bed😂 I don’t want to keep ruining everything I get through in a day for the sake of going out. So what if I seemed like an old woman, my health comes before anything so I don’t care😳! -
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I’m seeing my therapist/psychiatrist on Monday and I’m so scared! Like I mentioned on my post yesterday I’m losing weight and I just don’t get it. I’m hitting my meal plan everyday so what’s going on😳😖 Im so scared to gain weight but losing more is going to land me inpatient😖 I just want to be free!!! -
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Hope everyone has a good day❤️❤️❤️ -
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Lunch🍓 -
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Lunch today is 2 pieces of 50/50 bread🍞 with an extra light laughing cow cheese triangle🧀 and 2 thin chicken slices🍗 along with a vanilla Activia Greek style yogurt👑 -
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I just want to apologise for being so absent the past few days, I’m struggling and I’m not even going to lie to you guys about it because you deserve the truth. I feel so empty and like, worthless. I don’t know what’s happened the past few days but something has and I hate it😭 I feel like I’m not good enough for all of this and despite people telling me I need to fight and I know I need to because this is my life at the end of the day! (TW) I’m losing weight again and I don’t understand why?! I’m sticking to my meal plan??? Anyone know? -
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These pains are still horrific! I can’t explain it to you guys but it’s under my ribs, like at the top of my stomach and it constantly feels like someone’s stabbing me😳 it worse toward the end of the day and I can’t sleep because of it😖 I want this to end now, I’m scared! -
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I had a meeting with my lecturer about this semester at uni and the practicals around it...surprise surprise, I’m having to do all theory again! I don’t want to! I want to dance! What have I done to myself! I don’t want to be like this anymore but I’m so frickin’ stuck!!!!😖😖 -
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I hope you’re all okay and again, I’m sorry for being quiet😭❤️❤️❤️ -
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Breakfast👑 -
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Today for breakfast, I had my beloved honey Cheerios (40g)😍 with unsweetened almond milk🥛 along with an unpictured Warburtons toasting muffin🍞 with strawberry jam🍓 -
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I wanted to switch my breakfast up this morning and have weetabix but 1) I genuinely couldn’t bring myself to do it and 2) I think it’s more Anorexia speaking because it’s slightly lower calorie than having 40g cereal? Only by like 10 cals...does that matter though?😳 I just want something warm of a morning and I’m getting sick of cereal to be honest😒 -
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So, this morning I’m meant to be going into university for a meeting with my course leader and the rest of my course friends to overview our past years at uni and what we have achieved etc BUT...the lecturers have pre-ordered everyone breakfast (the did ask me but I have breakfast at home and I can’t eat infront of them yet so I said no)😖 so I’ll literally just be sat there for an HOUR watching people eat like bacon sandwiches and stuff😓 I really don’t think I should go? What do you think?😖😖 I just feel like I’m going to be so on edge and uncomfortable! -
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I’ve woke up in a lot of pain again today😷 I’m not sleeping great, my chest is on fire, my stomach (at the top) is KILLING me! The pain woke me up this morning and I genuinely thought I was going to be sick but being sick is a trigger for me so I refused it to happen🙄 been stuck on the toilet all morning again too! What is HAPPENING?!?😳😥 sorry for the information😂 -
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I just want to feel better, I hope you are all okay beauties❤️❤️❤️ -
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Dinner🌈 -
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Dinner today was 110g grilled chicken breast🍗 with a few sweet potato chips🍠 and some petit pois🥗 -
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So, I had my appointment and I just cried😖 what is it with therapists/psychiatrists?! They just know when you’re lying😓 she really picked at things and then she asked about my relationship between me and my best friend and I just burst out crying! We don’t speak anymore and I can’t help but think I’ve done something. Whenever I see her, it’s like there’s no conversation there anymore. My psychiatrist asked what I think the problem could be and I was honest, my best friend now has a boyfriend😒 every conversation with her is about her boyfriend and quite frankly, I’m bored of hearing his name. Obviously I’m happy for her but she’s always been the person to be like ‘I’ll never leave my friends for a boy’ MATE, what are you doing?! I haven’t spoke to her properly since NYE and even that felt forced and false, I don’t get it😖 I just don’t want to be the person constantly trying with conversations and I’ve left it for weeks now and heard nothing! -
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My psychiatrist then pointed out that it seems to be a reoccurring pattern with me that everyone leaves, and it’s so true😓 my dad passing away, losing my friends in high school, losing my best friend at the end of college and now this! I can’t be arsed anymore! It’s just little things as well, like I know people have their own problems but she knows EVERYTHING that’s going on in my life and how I’m struggling yet she can’t even take 2 minutes out of her ‘busy’ life to ask if I’m okay?!She messages the other girls in the flat all the time, yet I don’t get anything? Am I being paranoid or does that not scream to you that somethings going on?😳 she’s just slowly turning into someone I’d never associate myself with, someone that only wants me when they need something🙄 -
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I wasn’t weighed today and honestly I was so relieved! My psychiatrist said it’s because I only had my increase plan Friday and she didn’t feel like it would be fair to weigh me until next week😌 -
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I really hope everyone is okay, love you all❤️-
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Had this about 4 hours ago but uploading now😳❤️ -
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This has been on my new meal plan since Thursday and I HAVE been having it but a few people have messaged saying they’re concerned because I never seem to post anything after my dinner...so here it is🙈 -
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2 pieces of toast🍞 1 with with nutella🍫 and the other with a little butter (!!) and strawberry jam🍓! My dietician wants me to work towards 2 nutella but she’s happy with me having one now until I’m used to it❤️ -
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I hate that this doesn’t fit with my ‘theme’ BUT the reason I restarted before was because I didn’t want it to be a perfect theme😒 need to stop letting it bother me! -
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My stomach is in so much pain, like to the point I’m constantly lying down and sleeping, I can’t walk! It’s excruciating😖😖😖 I don’t know why but it feels like a mix of hunger pains and just general stomach pain? I might mention it to my therapist tomorrow and she if she knows anything🙄 -
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I really am dreading weighin tomorrow: I might ask not to be weighed till next week??? I just don’t think it’s very fair considering I was only weighted Thursday and I’ve had an increase plan? (I know the increase is 200cals but still)😟😓 -
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Going to try and get my head down and hopefully get a decent sleep! Night angels🎀❤️ -
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Challenging dinner (!!)😳🙈🤑 -
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I challenged a mother f-ing ready meal!!!! And it was BOMB😍😍😍 @sainsburys you’re doing it right👏🏻👊🏻! -
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BBQ hunters turkey🍗 with sweet potato mash🍠 cabbage and sweet corn🌽🥗! I genuinely can’t believe I did this! Not only was it a challenge to actually go out, buy it and eat it, but it was also a challenge by the fact there was sweet corn in it! I don’t know why I’m scared of sweet corn, I think it has something to do with the whole ‘sweet corn doesn’t digest’ thing🙄 but it won’t kill me, right?! -
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Had quite a boring day today! Woke up late, so challenged a late breakfast, then lay round the whole doing absolutely NOTHINg until lunch😂 and then I drove back to uni, cleaned the kitchen (it was DISGUSTING and not my mess!!!) and now I’m just sat in front on my laptop charger watching YouTube videos trying to distract myself from the fact I’ve just eaten this🙈 I need to get the rest of my stuff from the car🚗 and put away into my uni room🙄 I also need to get in the shower, wash my hair and straighten it😳 then I’m picking my friends up from the train station🚆 around 8ish! So I guess this afternoons been busier than this morning for sure! -
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I have a meeting with my therapist/psychiatrist tomorrow and I’m being weighed. I’m scared though because I got my meal plan Thursday, meaning it’s only been 4 days since I was last weighed😖 it’s giving me HUGE anxiety! -
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How is everyone?❤️❤️❤️ -
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Sorry for the rubbish photo, the lighting was horrible this evening🙄 -
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Dinner today is as my mums slimming world sweet chilli chicken breast🌶🍗 with 100g brown whole grain rice🍚 and some petit pois🥗...the chicken OMG, it was amazing!😍😍 -
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So, today’s been exhausting😴 I’m in so much pain everywhere, like it hurts to even move and arm or leg. I think I’ve defo caught this flu that’s going round😟🤧🤮 -
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Had work this morning and I felt okay, but since coming home and eating lunch, it’s gone down hill from there🙄 I’m meant to be going shopping with my step dad tonight as we didn’t go yesterday but I honestly don’t think I can go. I don’t want to let him down😳 -
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I tried the new muller light raspberry doughnut🍩 after my dinner and I had one spoon full and gave it to my mum. It was HORRIBLE!🤮 just tasted like a raspberry yogurt and (TW) I just felt like if I ate it, I would have been wasting calories😶😖 wasn’t what I expected at all😒 -
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Really hope this flu starts to shift because it’s bringing me down so much😓 I just want to be better😴 -
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Hope you’re all okay❤️❤️❤️ -
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Dinner🍝🥫😍 -
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So, what did this idiot do??? Forgot to take her chicken out the freezer🙄🍗 so dinner is 70g wholewheat penne pasta🍝 with mushrooms🍄 and some tomato passata sauce🍅 ALSO I will be having a clementine🍊 and an apple🍎 -
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Genuinely am pissed off that I didn’t take my chicken out the freezer😣😒, I was really fancying it but I’m driving home I’m 25 minutes so I needed to have something quick and easy and what better way to do it than challenging pasta(!!)🙈🙈🙈 please don’t judge me🙄😂 -
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As you saw, I went out last night and MARK MY WORDS, I am NOT going out for ages! I didn’t even drink yet I’m in so much pain! My body feels like it has pins and needles EVERYWHERE😣 I really don’t want to drive home🏠 but I have work tomorrow😒 not a fan! -
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Really tried with my new plan today, and I won’t lie I am struggling. Everything seems so so scary and I feel extremely guilty so I’ve been in and out of naps just sleep it off😂 I am DREADING Nutella toast tonight🍫😳 but what will be will be and if this means getting better, I have to do it! -
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Going food shopping for Home with my step dad later on tonight, I might pick up some challenges🙄🙈 -
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Short and sweet update so, I hope you’re all okay!🎀❤️-
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Merry Christmas Eve Everyone!! 🎄
L u n c h
Veggie, dumpling ramen 🍜
From #yosushi
Had this whilst queuing outside Canterbury cathedral for the Christmas concert. It's a family tradition and we come every year, really gets me in the festive mood! Anyways this was super yummy and really warmed me up after standing in the cold❄️ I also had a banana crunch 🍌 #nakdbar (not pictured) because I 👏🏻AM 👏🏻NOT 👏🏻SKIMPING!

Also one of my #makedecembersparkle challenges was to have my advent chocolate e v e r y d a y
And I'm proud to say that I did it!!😄 Hope everyone has a great rest of the day!xx

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Tbbbb to pb hotel chocolat with @emgainstrength 😜 (feat the gift set she got me loves yaaaa💖💖)
~Update Timeeee~
Inpatient is really hard but it’s so much more helpful than general hospital which I’m so greatful for and most of the nurses are AMAZING💖unfortunately the other day they had to transfer me back to the general hospital because of my blood sugars😔since I came back tho I was soooo motivated and trying so fucking hard but unfortunately they’re v close to sending me back again tonight😭BUT I’ve actually done really well and just had more of my sandwhich at tea than I usually manage PLUS most of my supplement (I’ve extra time for a supplement after my meals to replace what I don’t manage of the meal) so I’m really hoping that’ll keep me here💪🏻(Ik it sounds weird saying I want to be here but honestly general hospital is just so much worse so I’m just working with what I have for now because I’ve come to terms with the fact going home isn’t happening for a long time so rn my priority is stay medically safe enough to stay out of general) the v scary thing tho is that like yeah I’ve like slayed tea today but it doesn’t stop there, I have supper soon and have to get through that then wake up tomorrow and do all 6 meals all over again😩but today has thought me that I really can’t give up cos the minute I do that it’s back to general so trying to keep plodding as hard as it is and hopefully things will get better soon🤞🏻sorry for how waffle this has been lol feel like I’ve said the same thing about 10 times but it’s hard when I’ve not updated in so long and so much has happened😂might do a proper update on what inpatient is like here tomorrow✨hope you’re all welllll💜





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Why should make up dictate whether someone looks well and is doing fine when they’re clearly not?😳 it really distresses me when I have make up on and people comment things like ‘you look so well, you’re glowing’...mate, it’s my highlighter😄 the first photo here was taken this morning, while waiting for my toast to pop up😂 the second photo? An hour later once I’d made effort with my appearance! The comments I get make me feel as though as long as I have make up, people won’t expect I am suffering with an ED and I am in fact, ok. Well, you couldn’t be more wrong. -
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I’m not sure what response I will get regarding this post, but it is something that I’ve been getting a lot lately😭. It really triggers me when people are like ‘you look so much better, are you eating well?’, like what do you think that makes me feel like? Pure shit! I know I don’t look well which is really hurting I have to plaster my self in so much make up, yes it’s my BIGGEST insecurity but comments like this don’t help either. Why have girls been made to think and feel like make up is needed in order to look nice, well and healthy? Surely we should be happy in a natural self?😣😓 -
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I don’t know if anyone else feels like this but it’s something I so strongly struggle with. I want to be happy in my own skin, I want to be able to just get up and leave the house without thinking about setting my alarm 2 hours before I need to leave the house to make sure I’m plastered in foundation/concealer/fake lashes...I don’t want to keep doing it😖 but it’s like I have to. -
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Also, I’m sorry for not posting lately, I’ve been so busy running people around and I feel so ill within myself...think I’m coming down with something😖 body aches all over. -
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Hope you’re all okay! You’re all doing so well and each and every one of you inspire me day in and day out❤️❤️❤️-
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Dinner😌 -
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Dinner today is 2 pork sausages😍 some butternut squash ‘chips’🥗 and some mushrooms🍄👑 -
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Really not feeling dinner tonight but I have to eat😖 I have to eat if I want rid of this horrible bitch that has taken away my life!😳 -
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Feeling really weird today...like I feel like I’m almost not here? Do you know what I mean? Like I feel invisible and like I’m just floating around not really living/alive😳 I’m not sure what I’m trying to get at, I just feel abit down and distant I guess😓-
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I really enjoyed last night with one of my best friends! Like i genuinely loved it, I felt free! For those few hours I felt free! Yes, I felt guilty and bloated and horrible BUT I felt some parts of the old me! I want the WHOLE ME BACK!🙈❤️ -
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Don’t have much to say to be honest, I have a meeting with my lecturer tomorrow to discuss my practical modules and ways around me not doing them, so I’ll keep you updated on that after it’s happened🙄😌 -
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DINNER🙈😳👏🏻 -
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OMG, yes, don’t let your eyes deceive you! This girl has a FRICKIN’ NANDOS🍗😳😍 butterfly chicken (I took the skin off) and a side salad🥗-
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I won’t lie and say it was a walk in the park because it wasn’t! I struggled, it was so busy and I felt like everyone was staring BUT I had a bloody good go at it!-
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So, I’m waiting for the comments about it being ‘too small’ or ‘not a challenge’ but just hear me out please!😌 last time I was here, what did I eat? NOTHING! I sat miserable, drinking Diet Coke watching the rest of my friends laugh and joke with each other, eating their food without a care in the world! I WANT TO THAT! I’m sat here full of guilt and anxiety for what?! The fact I’ve eaten something that’s out of my comfort zone...well, that’s what I need to do! I need to get out of my little comfort bubble and face these fears! I used to LOVE going out for meals with my friends and genuinely enjoying life, oh how I’d love to go back to that way of life...carefree, flourishing, doing anything I wanted to! I want the old me back and I’m so willing to fight!😣😭 -
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Yes, I know I went ‘safe’ with this meal but please just accept the fact I actually faced the FEARS (yes, plural) of 1) eating out! 2) eating in front of people and 3) eating something that I didn’t make or watch being made! I won’t even lie, I’m proud of myself!👏🏻👊🏻 -
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Me and my friend are going to the cinema now to watch the new ‘Jumanji’ film now so that should be a good distraction😌! My friend asked if I want some sweets from the cinema but I can’t face it! I really wish I could do it but I can’t, I don’t want to push myself too much and (TW) end up purging or using other ways to compensate😓 just a Diet Coke for me👑 -
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I will beat this, slowly but surely, Ana, you will die!!! -
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Lunch👑 -
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Lunch today is the usual 3 pieces of 50/50 bread🍞 with 3 pieces of wafer thin chicken🍗 a extra light laughing cow cheese triangle🧀 and a easy peeler sweet clementine🍊 -
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Went out last night and quite frankly, I am SICK of anorexia taking over my life😭😭😭 I just wanted to enjoy my night but no, she had fucking rules didn’t she?! No alcohol (which I’m fine with), then it turned into no drinks at all, WHAT?! I’m so dehydrated this morning and this sandwich tastes disgusting and I really don’t want it😖 but I am trying to rationalise it and think, what will that get me?! She’s so strong today and I just want rid of her😖😓 -
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A lot happened last night but I don’t want to trigger so I’ll leave the details but let’s just say a repeat of last time happened and I really am serious, I don’t want to go out ever again until I’m healthy😳 I can’t keep doing this to myself, I’m in so much pain this morning over it and I just want to scream so loud for Ana to FUCK OFF😖! -
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Can we just appreciate how CUTE this clementine is😌😍🍊 they’re amazing too! -
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Hope everyone is okay❤️❤️❤️ -
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Good evening 💛

Still having a LOT of Christmas foods left so my #nightsnack this evening will be a #wholechocolatebarlarty with this @rittersport Speculoos as well as a vanilla crescent (aka the BEST cookies 💛) plus a hanuta ”milk + crispies” (not my fave but I won’t let them go to waste 🤷🏼‍♀️)
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eating wise I’m doing kinda okay (calorie wise) but something I really struggle with is eating enough throughout the day ending in disasters like this…
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Sleep well and keep fighting 💛

Breakfast😜-
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Whys is so dull and dark this morning😳😒 -
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Breakfast today is 30g honey muffs cereal😍 with unsweetened almond milk🥛 along with 2 pieces of 50/50 toast🍞 one topped with strawberry jam🍓 and the other topped with honey🍯 (@leandrasroadtorecovery helped me pick what topping and she sure picked well😍❤️) -
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Today I’m going into my university library to FINALLY try and get some essay work done🙈😂 I’m actually ridiculous when it comes to written work especially because after I was told I’m not allowed to dance, my motivation went from 100 to 0 and I have no power at all to do this degree anymore, BUT I’m here for a reason so I will try atleast!😌 -
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So whether you saw my story in time last night or not, some of you may know I went to yoga last night🧘‍♀️ I felt AMAZING! I was so relaxed and calm for a change and for the first time in what seems like forever, I actually forgot I had an eating disorder🙈 like everything was completely erased from my life! I walked out feeling like I could have taken on the world🌍 I’m going again tomorrow and keeping on track of it! -
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Do you guys think I should tell my ED services that I’m doing yoga? I mean it’s not too strenuous but after they said no dancing and no gym, I don’t know?😳 -
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Right, going to start and finish my breakfast, get myself sorted and head over to the library!💻📔🗂 -
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Have a lovely day everyone❤️❤️❤️ -
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