.. These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase ..
.. today marks exactly 7 months since this horrible day in July. the day a loving woman lost her soulmate. her husband. her best friend. the love of her life. the day that six children lost their daddy. the day that will go down as one of the most devastating days in music history. the day that changed millions of lives forever. because it is the day Chester Bennington lost the fight against his demons. demons he had been fighting for many years. demons many of us know all too well ourselves. the soldiers lost their leader. their role model. their light in dark times. the voice of their generation. their Messenger. the one person who was there for us when no one else was. and how many of us thought "look at all the shit he's been through. he made it. he left his past in the past. he won the fight. if he can do it then maybe I can too." - but we felt too save. we were wrong. he didn't win. his demons were right behind him. haunting him. and they caught him. since this day the world is not the same anymore. I'm not the same anymore. it feels empty. and grey. lost. everything looks different. everything smells different. everything sounds different. it's like living in fog. I often find myself watching videos or looking through pictures and smiling at the awesomeness of this man and only seconds later I have to force myself to remember that he's not here anymore. I have to actually say it to force myself to believe me. followed by tears and whispering "what have you done what have you done what have you done". yet it doesn't seem real. even on day 215 nothing of this seems real. how is it 7 months already when it's only 7 months. this doesn't make sense. nothing does. I don't know if it ever will make sense again ..
.. I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But even though you're still with me
I've been alone all along ..
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