Life has a way of hitting us with the unexpected just as we are starting to make progress. Making our walls we have created completely tumble down and expose us to vulnerability. This morning I woke up to an abrupt and urgent text. It immediately filled me with worry, anxiety, fear, anger, hurt, contempt, the list could go on. I felt like i was compelled to solve the situation and fly to the rescue. I found myself in a circle of emotions I have recently been trying to work through. Every morning I mediate as a morning routine I have established within the last 10 days. I sat, and allowed myself to feel each feeling, tears came, negative thoughts came, anger came, hurt, every emotion I have learned to suppress, and at the end of my mediation I felt an overwhelming sense of calm. Life has its ups and it’s definite downs. The only thing we have complete control over is our mind. We control how we feel towards that situation and even though I can’t be apart of that situation I still have an immense LOVE and have to send that from afar. Sometimes letting go of the past may make us feel deceitful or disloyal, but sometimes we have to close one door to open another. We are not obligated to support and physically be with someone if they are not willing to heal themselves. If we allow ourselves to feel that guilt, it will only seclude us into that darkness. Today started out very rocky with a ton of negative energy, but I have complete control over my mind and how I allow it to affect my day going forward. I allowed the emotions to come and am going to go forward with clarity. We all have constant hard decisions to make and sometimes that decision we make may seem disloyal, but in reality it’s out of love, fairness, & forgiveness.