At the beginning of every year, more than anything, I tell myself I want to be more thoughtful. Not in a way that is to be more empathetic or considerate or kind - although that is always a subtle burden on my heart - but rather to just pause. Breathe in the world around me. Take it in and really let it steep into my bones how beautiful this life is. To think deeply about it. Because over the past few years, life has gotten overwhelming. And my heart lost its capacity for thoughtfulness, and I started to see things surface level. There is something inside me now that violently wants that to change. // Yesterday, I was able to watch waves charge toward the rocky coastline and explode onto the sea wall without fear of tomorrow because everything they ever had been and everything they ever would be was right then.