Our bodies are changing every single day. The body you woke up with this morning is not the same body you went to sleep with last night. Truth is, my body & I are on the journey to refamiliarize ourselves with eachother. I have not felt like myself for quite sometime now and it is just now starting to make sense to me that all the negative emotions I have experienced over the past year or so are now breaking my body down. These negative emotions have thredded their way into my muscles, joints & the deepest parts of my mind. I have experienced alot of self hate and negative self talk and even anger towards others and it is causing my body harm. I wake up everyday with pain only on the left side of my body, and I am always ALWAYS exhausted. I have been spending so much time trying to figure out why it hurts and how can I fix it that I forgot to look to the one place that has all the answers. To myself. Sometimes when I sit down to meditate I uncover some pretty ugly parts of myself or some really ugly experiences that I've had. Meditation is not always pretty and blissful. Then I get scared to accept these enemies so I wake from my meditation with anxiety & frustration and I carry that with me and it sits in my body creating pain. I am now on a journey to heal myself from this pain that has been embedded in me because of my reactions to my past & present experiences. My body is not as strong or flexible as it used to be but I will continue to challenge myself to face these enemies of my practice and mind with softness, acceptance, & forgiveness.