"When I was Your foe, still Your love fought for me
You have been so, so good to me
When I felt no worth, You paid it all for me
You have been so, so kind to me"
I have been dealing with a couple of things recently that has caused me to question God. Through this journey of entrepreneurship and being a better man, there have been a lot of moments that I spend alone. I devote so much time every single day to being a better person for myself, others and God. While doing so, I also run into struggle. Some days I break down and cry because of my impatience. I disconnect from those that truly care for me do to my devotion to being better for my family. And there are days where I feel unworthy at the feet of God and people because of my problems.
Through those hard times, I always look back at the importance of how worship music has helped me in the past. There is this song that has recently impacted me in a destructive, good way. That song is Reckless Love by Cory Asbury. In the song, it describes the everlasting love of our God and how he values us regardless of our scars. I find a lot of hope in that. Through my loneliness, I always turn and weep to him when I am in need. As people, we tend to judge and turn the cheek the other way on those that really need love the most when they are in a storm. My God does the opposite. And I recently forgot that.
This song has become so special to me. For the last month, it has become the platform that has allowed me to start my mornings with God. It reminds me as I go throughout my day that I am valued and I am a precious treasure in the eyes of our Father. He is so amazing. I don't deserve anything in this life, yet he chases after me. I love him so much and created this in gratitude of the song that has brought me so much worth and grace.