The evolution of the fair food movement in this little patch has been greatly spurred by the formation of the beechworth food co op which a group of us began discussing nearly four years ago. In that time we have advocated at all tiers of government, created collaborative strategies, delivered skills enhancing events to more than 1000 people, activated more than 11, 000 volunteer hours, supported over 35 local growers with a place to sell their food, been open as a place to simply drop in and connect, shared our story all over the country at more than 30 gatherings we've been invited to and pushed the local food bandwagon in every way we can imagine. We have had some wonderful contributors come and go over the years and the engagement has ebbed and flowed depending on season, service quality, product offering but mostly its been the energy of the drivers that has reaped greatest return in participation. To say im deeply comitted is an unstatement but to say im tired is also true. With so much untapped potential (and so many goals which are yet to be delivered) the desire to continue is vast but the road is still long and steep and with only so much physical time and emotional energy the reality is that my personal and family life has been relegated for the sake of this 'something bigger than us vision' and it just might be time to reasses my priorities. Its a funny thing to create a community movement and then feel owned by it. Its absolutley love/hate. You become defined by it...not just in the eyes of others but in your own sense of identity. I tell people often that something like this can only move as quickly as the community empowers it to. Perhaps it's time for this little co op with enormous dreams to settle into a pace on par with its community and for me to refocus on my family and my health?