Tosin teases me often about the fact that, whenever I have a question about anything, my hand is already flying to my phone to "ask google." He isn't wrong. The wealth of information we have at our fingerprints is amazing and I take advantage of it. So last night, as several songs cycled through my head, I searched about whether or not ADHD people have songs in their heads more often (lol). This somehow connected me to an article about a man who was diagnosed with ADHD in his 30s, in which he gave an analogy about having ADHD that had me yelling "yes!!!" Internally. "'It's a bit like sitting in front of a bank of TV screens all tuned to different channels. Conversely, sometimes the TVs all tune into the same channel and I become completely absorbed. So paradoxically, not only is it difficult to pay attention to one thing, but it can also often be difficult to shift your attention from one thing to another. This, I would learn, is what leads to the forgetfulness, lack of concentration, poor grasp of time passing and difficulties with prioritising tasks.'" -Steve Riley. Ahhh, the distractability somehow coexisting with hyperfocus. Yes. These words had me thinking about the recent book I read by Chimamanda Adiche, Purple Hibiscus, which I read for hours straight all through the night, time passing almost imperceptibly. It felt strange to know that I'm capable of this even though, I noted with a bit of chagrin, I've been putting off most of the reading I've wanted to do for months. (Purple Hibiscus is an amazing+heartbreaking novel by the way, which I would highly recommend. Adiche's writing is a breath of fresh air and so are her speeches). When I become absorbed in a task, I'm fully focused and you'd be hardpressed to get me to change course. But when it comes to longterm projects and maintaining a schedule, I struggle. A lot. Even so, I loved the tone of the article because the man, while relieved with his diagnosis, also acknowledged the positive parts of having ADHD - and even said he wouldn't change it. I identify with that. Is it challenging? Yes. But more than that, it's a huge part of my creative process and most importantly, a huge part of who I am.