I know, it's not Thursday but today is a special day for me, so excuse this Throwback.
It's been exactly two years since I've seen my favorite band live for the first time: @falloutboy . This band means so much to me and my happiness that I feel the need to explain why I'm posting this pic.
For a long time I had been severely unhappy. I was stressed out and faced anxiety and negative thoughts almost every single day - it got really bad in 2013. Until at the end of that year, I listened to a song on YouTube that played on complete accident - My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark. And for the first time in what felt like forever I was overwhelmed by what I was feeling - I felt a spark of hope and happiness and like somebody finally got me. My breath was taken away for several seconds and I was close to crying. I had been surrounded by darkness for so long that I had completely forgotten how it could feel to be honestly happy. I listened to everyone of this band's songs I could find - and I found so many more bands that matter so much to me nowadays. On this day that I heard Fall Out Boy for the first time I decided that life was too precious and filled with good things to always feel unhappy - I decided I wouldn't let myself get down anymore.
The day I saw them live, almost two years after I had originally heard of them, I was a bundle of nerves and I didn't know what to do - I counted the hours and queued for over 4 hours in the cold. And I was rewarded by standing in the third row and seeing these wonderful people so close to me. I was so happy afterwards - happier than I could have ever imagined.
And now, another two years later, with their new album MANIA coming out in 2018, I feel so freaking happy every single day. I just realized this almost one month ago how long my journey to happiness actually was - and how good I feel nowadays. It's incredible and I just wanna thank this band for everything they changed in my life for the better. 💜
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