🔵 Day 10 of @cuchira's #beYOUtifulU challenge is: TOXIC HABITS!
"Perform a funeral for your toxic habits & read your eulogy.
🔴 Dearest friends and family, tonight we gather here to pay our respects to worrying, short-temper, comparison, and self-loathing. I've known these guys for almost 33 years of my life and they've been there with me 7 days a week, through thick and thin, happy and bad... never left my side. I could say that there were some of the best friends that I've had if it weren't for the fact that being in this friendship with them was always so toxic.
I know that they never intended to do any harm. Never. But I also knew that they understood that they outnumbered me and because of it that they were always stronger than me. And I know that all they ever wanted, deep down all I know was that they wanted me to be strong enough. Strong enough to overcome them. Strong enough to be better than them.
I remember times when I would just be doing really bad, and they would come over and we would watch movies and just veg out and... thinking about it now, I'm just like, they had really really crappy taste in sad movies but they had really great taste in music. And I do remember a lot of times of just laying down with them. Just hanging out and listening to music, and singing & crying. And then I'd fall asleep and they'd be gone when I woke up and I would go about my day, and I'd come back and there they were. Ready to hang out again.
This is a good thing, them moving on, because now I know that I can prove to them that I can do this. That I can be better than them. That I can be stronger. I hope wherever you guys are, I hope you guys finally find peace.
In the words of the late Celia Cruz, 🎶"Ay, no hay que llorar. Que la vida es un carnaval, Y es más bello vivir cantando. Oh-oh-oh, ay, no hay que llorar. Que la vida es un carnaval, Y las penas se van cantando."🎶 Life is a carnival and It's more beautiful to live life singing. Life is a carnival and your worries go singing. I hope wherever you guys are, you guys have found a spot to just sing and be happy. To finally be happy. Goodbye old friends."