Ok - so maybe you've noticed my break from IG. & though I've explained it to my close friends, I want to explain myself here, too. •
I have loved the experiences & friendships I have gained through finding creative people's pages & reaching out. Scrolling through my page, I realized that some of the best times were with @wildandfree.corina. I loved putting on her butterfly wreaths & spending time in the great outdoors. I realized it was something that we invented for ourselves to play. I remember laughing about it with her when we first time got together, agreeing that truthfully, we were just trying to play dress up into adulthood. •
As things went on, I began to expand this creative side of myself. It was a vortex into a world where things were curated & delightful to look at. I moved to LA to do it more, but it quickly became obvious it wasn't right. I was having a hard time living on my own there & I was missing the heart of why I got into it in the first place. I was craving connection, relationship & meaning.
Then one day, feeling totally burnt out, I decided I needed to drive home for the weekend. The next day, I met someone. I moved back to my hometown knowing I wasn't meant to be in LA and feeling it was meant to be I met him. Coming back here was one of the best decisions I made in 2017.
I remember the first day I came home knowing I wasn't going to stay in LA or stick to my "plan". I could feel it. I remember going into my families backyard & sprawling out on the grass. I remember feeling the earth beneath my feet & the sun on my face. I remember the look of the redwood trees swaying in the wind & how calm I felt. More than anything, I could feel what I was going back to. I was going back to my roots. I started to get deeply into Yoga & made plans to get my yoga teaching certification. I noticed a sense of feeling one with the world. I remember feeling tears in meditation as a profound part of myself came alive. My real life became rich and meaningful. Full with new friends, family, and peace. •
I wish that sense of peace for everyone. Uneasiness is a first step to true satisfaction. Just listen to your heart & surrender to the rhythm of love.