Sometimes I sink, sometimes I swim. .
I'm going to get REAL here, peeps....
I headed to my doctor's office this morning to discuss how tired and not myself I've been feeling lately. I went to bed at 8pm last night and slept 11 hours. Like who am I?! .
In 2016 I was diagnosed with Depression. I'll be honest at first I was mortified and embarrassed! I kept hearing, "your just tired and lethargic because you have a little one at home". Or, "as soon as winter is over you'll feel like getting out" or the best was "you're fine, it's all in your head". .
Well, the joke is on ALL of us, it IS all in my head! A better way to talk about my depression is to let y'all know that my body doesn't produce the correct amount of serotonin...and a little sunshine isn't going to make the difference. (been there, done that!)
I've gone through phases of not wanting to get out of bed or leave the house. I've said "no thanks" with a gazillion excuses as to why I can't make appointments or visits. I've passed by opportunities, I've missed out on adventures, I've led with my fear and not with my heart and most of all I've been so tired. .
It's improved SO much over the last couple of years on medication and changes in my lifestyle and health and yet lately I've noticed the old feelings come back slowly so I knew to make that appointment. And I am SOOOO glad I did so we can make some tweaks. .
Am I still happy and healthy?! Yes! EVEN more so because now I finally know the difference and know where my goals are and when to ask for help!
Trust me, if you need a listening ear, if you need to reach out to someone who understands the loneliness, if you just want to connect with a girl who gets the lack of sunshine deep inside...I'm here. You're not alone. We may feel like we're sinking at times but we'll learn to swim together....
I got you boo!
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