I had terribly vivid dreams last night. One was particularly frightening. I woke up out of breath and shaken. Asking Chris if Phoenix was still in his bed. Wren was snuggled next to me, she had come into our room sometime in the night. No surprise there. ☺️.
In the dream, I was outside, in an unfamiliar place. The kids were with me but then all of sudden, they were gone. I was trying to stay calm. Looking in every direction. Flashes of moments kept repeating. I began running, screaming their names. There was a beach full of people. A arched bridge that was too steep to cross. I frantically asked someone for help. Next thing I knew, we were running through dense woods, tears streaming down my face. Searching. Flashes of moments still repeating. None of it made sense, of course. But the mind is funny that way. So often things don’t make sense.
I woke up while my mind was racing through the woods. The moments weren’t real, but the feelings of fear and confusion were. I felt them so strongly.
The thing is tho, there have been times that I’ve felt those same feelings when I’m wide awake.
Fearful, unsure, insecure.
I think a lot of us have.
Journaling, talking with others, meditation, prayer, redirecting our thoughts to a place of gratitude and beauty all help during those times. I used to keep a quote on my desk that read, “...we can’t live in the light all of the time. You have to take whatever light you can hold into the dark with you.” There is always light, whatever shape it takes for you or however small, it is there. We’re not alone. You’re not alone.
📷 is from this chilly morning’s time around the table ♥️
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