"I am learning to trust the journey, even if I don’t understand it." Sometimes life lessons are complex, and we only see part of the puzzle at a given time. As they say, Hindsight is everything. Keep on your journey, it will all make sense in the end.
Naturally that is easier said than done. We humans like to control things, and are not comfortable with the unknown. Just remember, you made many decisions about your life before you arrived on this planet. Trust the process.