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CrossFit Friends 👩🏽👩🏻👱🏼‍♀️
Un joli souvenir d'un séjour imprévu auprès de la belle @pinkycupky avec @sse_jay
Dans le CrossFit, on développe certains muscles mais aussi quelques belles amitiés. 🦋
Merci les filles. 😉

#LifeInProgress
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My dad just sent me this. Little Reza.

#time #timeflies #life #lifeinprogress #90s

Work. Followed by more work. #LifeInProgress at DonBellPhotography.com #MarchMadness

Io ci sarò sempre per te,ricordalo!!#lifeinprogress

I went to the train station and I came back home. #lifeinprogress

New city. New adventures. New crew? #LifeInProgress #HappyHour #EscapeFromNewYork #Chicago

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My dad just sent me this. Little Reza.

#time #timeflies #life #lifeinprogress #90s

You either say what you feel and f*** things up, or don't say what you feel and it f***s YOU up. Ahhh, life's fabulous catch 22's. Choose your battles. That's all I've got on that one. Like currently. I battle pharma once again. This generally never ends well for me. But experience has taught me - choose your battles. Choose wisely - especially when you're fighting to get your life back. I choose this battle - I think living my life's worth this one. ❤🤷‍♀️.
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#spring #flowers #coping #grief #phases #seasons #lifeinprogress #wednesdaywonders #mimosa #imissyou #morethanwordscansay #depression #anxiety #panic #cptsd #ptsd #mentalhealthmatters #youmatter #loveyourself #yourenotalone

Details. I'll never not be obsessed with them in nature. In life? That's changed. I'm not feeling that regarding the new round of treatment. I don't give a fuck about the details. Let's just do it and see what happens and move forward either way. .
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I love mimosas. I used to pick their big leaves when I'd get off the school bus and make skeletons out of them on the long, dirt road walk home. I'd leave a trail of these little leaves behind me, almost like the fairy tale. I was convinced as a child I did live in a fairy tale. .
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After DB died, the illusion of that fairy tale I've carried all my life fell away. Memories started creeping back in. The protection of Daddy and DB were gone. My walls began to crumble. My mother began to attack again when my memories and questions started to leak out. I began to shatter. .
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I want to be done with that. I will accept my truth. I will heal what I can. I will patiently and lovingly hold what I can't heal. And I will eventually be far more than I have ever imagined I already was. I want myself back, and I will get that. .
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We all have gifts. We have talents. We have purposes. Don't let your traumas and pains and doubts become permanent walls to reaching your full potential for yourself. Don't sit in silence if that's not what you want. Fight, in whatever way feels right. You deserve more. You deserve goodness and progress and life. And we can get there. ❤❤🙏🏼
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#spring #flowers #coping #grief #phases #seasons #lifeinprogress #wednesdaywonders #mimosa #imissyou #morethanwordscansay #depression #anxiety #panic #cptsd #ptsd #mentalhealthmatters #youmatter #loveyourself #yourenotalone

My doctor (doctor day - two this time) said to me today, "yes, it can kill you, grief. But you're still alive. You've made all these changes. Celiac diet, smoke free for more than a year. Therapy. Working on it. You've made it this far. You've come this far, clawing and crawling your way through the fight. What do you want to do? Give up now? Or live?" "Live, of course. Why all the physical stuff?" "We don't know. But if you'll trust me, cope with the puke and headache, and see this one through for another few weeks, we might be able to find out more. Will you do it? Will you trust me? Do this round and see what happens?" "Are you fucking kidding me?" "Blank stare, hopeful eyes." "Ok. One more round. That's it. Then I'm moving on." .
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My son: "she can do anything. She is superwoman!" Me: "I'm not Dorie, but yes - I will give it this much longer." Just fix my heart."
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New cardio appt being scheduled. Stress echo, in office echo, 7 day monitor, new med. weekly blood work. Tilt table if that doesn't give a heart answer. Then mor invasive. And if nothing then, I'm done. It'll be what it is after that. LOL Pray for me. Please let this be it. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
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I have doubts. I hate puking. I am afraid. I am exhausted. But I'm also ANGRY. FED UP. AND IN THAT? READY TO SHOW THEM - I will not be defeated. .
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I'm ready to create my own closure by proving that I have the strength in me to survive this. I can. I CAN. I miss you, all of you who are gone. But I'm not. I'm still here. And I'm going to do this. Wet faced with tears and snot and sweat and vomit mouth, maybe. But I'm...strong enough. And I'll finish with a smile. Watch and see. .
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#lifeinprogress#love #lovenothate #doctorday #meds #theworldneedslove #inspire #kindness #chronicillness #selfcare #youmatter #depression #anxiety #cptsd #mentalhealthmatters

CrossFit Friends 👩🏽👩🏻👱🏼‍♀️
Un joli souvenir d'un séjour imprévu auprès de la belle @pinkycupky avec @sse_jay
Dans le CrossFit, on développe certains muscles mais aussi quelques belles amitiés. 🦋
Merci les filles. 😉

#LifeInProgress
#crossfit
#CrossFitGirls
#Strong
#progenex
#fitaid

Når man har været på barsel...lidt for længe👀🤦🏼‍♀️🤡
Nå men, jeg tænker det er godt at nå til det punkt, for så ved man også at det er ved at være tid til noget nyt👍🏼
Forleden var jeg ude og se på lokaler til min kommende praksis og jeg må indrømme, jeg har en lille 🦋 i maven... af begejstring selvfølgelig😉
#kukIKasketten #påDenGodeMåde 😆 #barselsLiv #ammehjerne #hængepatter #enDuftAf #euaDeGylp #lifeInProgress #buisness #balanceLiv #holistiskindsigt #hudterapi

It's doesn't matter so much where your from, what matters is where you're going..
Brave new journeys.. #doorways #windows #music #color #blue #glass #patterns #brave #dreams #subconscious #art #lifeinprogress #journey

Lot of people wanting health updates so here's one, before I take the rest of the week off: I don't really know. I'm so sick of doctors that don't help me. Medicine that makes me sicker. Tests. But I still hope that eventually the right doctor will do the right test & find out what's wrong. Is it my heart's valves? Is it related to a food allergy? What is it? Everything currently points to the leaking aorta/valve situation. That's my latest update. I truly don't know anything.
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That said? It's been a really hard day. I know it's been a really hard day for those people who won't ever have their kids come back home to them, to the people in the world who are struggling with terrorism, starvation, wars, poverty, & so many other horrible things in the world. So at some level I questioned posting this. .
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Here's the thing: we ALL have our days, for our reasons, because of our own situations. I've been seeing a LOT of you post about how you feel almost guilty or how you feel inappropriate to feel anything but lucky or grateful for your lives & what they are today - but you can't help but have a hard time doing that. That's OK. I want you to remember that your struggles might be different from those of other people but they're no less important. .
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Here's my own day, for example. I promise you you're not alone.
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It's really hard to be my son's mom right now. Despite doing it on my own when he's home, which is tough for any parent, & despite the grief, anxiety & depression/cptsd, which make it extremely difficult to cope "normally" as a parent, there's now the fact that (today, for example) I can't physically keep up & feel horrible. Constantly. .
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Literally, I went outside with him to kick the soccer ball & thought I'd pass out because of the blood flow problem. I had to sit down after five minutes. And it's not the idea of anything happening to me that upsets me today. I'm so grateful he's here - but seeing the disappointment in his eyes. The worry. The sadness. It sucks. .
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So it's been a bad day here, too, & that's ok. Don't be guilted into thinking that lack of gratitude/hope has a thing to do with it. If you're "in it" today, you're not alone. ❤🙏

Do what works for you, but don't let doctors and drug companies dump fake science on you that you believe simply because they say it is accurate. .
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. "So, what happens when we let drug companies tell doctors what science is? We have an industry and a profession working together to maintain a house of cards theory in the face of contradictory evidence.
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We have a global situation in which increases in prescribing are resulting in increases in severity of illness (including numbers and length of episodes) relative to those who have never been treated with medication.
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To truly appreciate the breadth of evidence that states antidepressants are ineffective and unsafe, we have to get behind the walls that the pharmaceutical companies erect. We have to unearth unpublished data, data that they were hoping to keep in the dusty catacombs.
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A now famous 2008 study in the New England Journal of Medicine by Turner et al sought to expose the extent of this data manipulation. They demonstrated that, from 1987 to 2004, 12 antidepressants were approved based on 74 studies. Thirty-eight were positive, and 37 of these were published. Thirty-six were negative (showing no benefit), and 3 of these were published as such while 11 were published with a positive spin (always read the data not the author’s conclusion!), and 22 were unpublished." -Kelly Brogan
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#love #lovenothate #theworldneedslove #inspire #kindness #stopbullying #nomorebullying #youmatter #narcissisticabuse #depression #anxiety #cptsd #mentalhealthmatters #lifeinprogress #spring #flower #expressyourself #writersofinstagram #quotes #grief #griefsupport #cancersucks #natureheals #mentalhealthawarenessweek

"I’m sure there will be plenty of people out there who believe that what I am saying is nonsense.  That great accomplishments can be had without experiencing pain, depression, loneliness or frustration. .
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Even if I was to point out that Van Gogh suffered from seizures, addiction and anxiety or that Jim Morrison was lonely, frustrated and had addiction problems of his own might not sway you.  The list of artists that I could mention would be incredibly long.  But the list would also be filled with the most talented creative people the world has known.
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I have my own frustrations.  When I began my blog over a year ago, I was in a horrible place.  I had deep depression and my view of the future was almost too painful to bear.  But, the writing flowed and the ideas were endless.
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As time passed, the depression lifted and the happiness once again took over my life.  All was well and good except for the writing.  It became more forced as the topics ran dry.  Each entry did little to impress me.  My writing became words on a page without the substance I had craved and received in my unfortunate earlier state.
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These days, I actually get excited when I am worked up and out of sorts.  It is still the best time for me to write.  Ideas flood into my head that had not been present until the rough patch I am going through draws it out." - Wendy McCance
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That's why I love my pain more than I hate it. The expression. It keeps me more positive, because it gives it all a purpose. 🙏🏼 Express yourself. No matter what. What you're going through, who you are, where you are... If you're an artist, if you're not... Express yourself. We want to hear what you've got to say. You matter and the world needs the beauty of you. ❤
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#love #lovenothate #theworldneedslove #inspire #kindness #stopbullying #nomorebullying #youmatter #narcissisticabuse #depression #anxiety #cptsd #mentalhealthmatters #lifeinprogress #spring #flower #expressyourself #writersofinstagram #quotes #grief #griefsupport #cancersucks #natureheals

Once again, she helps me begin my day with more faith in life, love, humanity, and myself than I woke up with. Thank you, Amanda. You already know...so 'nuff said. ❤🙏🏼
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#Repost @amandagist
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So I had a different quote I was gonna post. One that involved several obscenities. But then my dear friend @shinewithfrannie sent me this and it was like my brain exploded. Because you guys have NO idea how often I doubt myself & the work I'm putting out into this world & my corner of the online universe.
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But I believe my wounds can help heal others. And I believe yours can too. And so it is.
#mystoryisntover
#healthoverhollywood

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